Relentless Search for Truth

SETH: “…In a way, illnesses are definitely a part of health, for life itself consists of a fine alignment, of imbalances. One disease may actually protect you from a stronger one, or from a detrimental course of action that you might otherwise follow.
In the greater realm of activity—I am trying to put this simply—a poor marriage, for example, is on the same level as a chronic but not life-threatening disease.
It is not simply that disease is disease, and relationships are relationships, but that the individual generally tries to achieve the best possible conditions for a satisfying spiritual, emotional and physical existence according to beliefs and intents.
There is no separation between body and mind, so that the body has emotional considerations to take into consideration also. It has mental reasons for its actions, then, as the mind has physical ones.
A poor marriage, for example, bringing years of loneliness or bitterness is, again, the same thing in its way as, say, chronic kidney stones.
Such a person may, however, according to intents and beliefs and focus, be in fairly decent physical health —because health may be a prerogative…” ~ 1977 12 10 The Personal Sessions, Book 4, Deleted Session

 

Today as I reread SETH’s Words they become bigger and bigger to me. When I first read this I did not realize the magnitude or the depth of what Seth was saying.  I was so excited because I knew that it was being revealed to me and that this was beyond greatness but the fullness of the understanding is still being revealed to me at this moment.

I knew that the body had a consciousness in which it was capable of functioning on its own, constantly regenerating and healing itself, but I think that was as far as my understanding went. But what I did not understand was that the body consciousness had EMOTIONAL considerations! And if the body and the mind are inseparable, the body can communicate to the mind that the ‘imbalance’ of energy should not be used for illness (health being my prerogative), but possibly be used in relationship to a poor marriage.

This witnesses with me! Health is my prerogative. It always has been. I have loved the strength of my body and obviously my body knows and appreciates that. I never had any understanding of a loving or happy marriage in my youth so settling for a poor marriage, at that time, was an easy choice. The imbalanced energy in my life had to go somewhere and my body knew that I didn’t want it on me so the obvious choice was to move it ‘outside’ of this flesh. Pretty cool decision actually.

Where this gets messy is when religion told me that my body was just a vessel and that there was a definite separation between my body and my spirit which causes a break in communication. Religion has you feeling that your body is your enemy and that it is filled with the sins of your forefathers, beginning with Adam and Eve. This very idea of sin causes body hatred for some.
Obviously this is not true; for this physical body and this entire physical reality are my own projections, my own self, my own representative of human manifestation! There is no separation! God Is, I Am, My Body Is, My Reality Is, All One. There is no separation. I am ‘on’ Earth Being Myself…as I choose to be.

Now; In my life at this point…I am a different person from that crazy little girl. Now, I have made the choice for a wonderful and loving marriage with Ross; which brings up a point of what to do with ‘imbalances’ in my energy.

My mind knows that the decision has been made to never sacrifice the marriage.

My body emotionally feels the strength of my decision to keep my marriage loving and strong, HOWEVER it feels emotionally bound to hold to my original decision of strength and health. So what is to be sacrificed?

…Which brings me to this moment of understanding – YES! YES! YES! As crazy as it sounds, I feel my physical, human representation, asking me for help (communion), not as a separate being but as myself incarnate, being more powerful and durable than it ever has been, based on this understanding of oneness.

My Great Uncle SETH says, “…life itself consists of a fine alignment, of imbalances.”

‘We’ (me, myself, and I) have no space or time for imbalanced energies. Nothing is to be sacrificed. Imbalances are to be ‘Finely Aligned’ with Truth.

This so explains the constant pushing for more of ‘God’ that I have felt all of my life. This incarnation’s intent is the Relentless Search for Truth! I have never been able to settle for less and I can’t stop here… My final human breath will be whispering, “Yes, I have found it. I have found my truth. I can move on now.”

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