How Are You FEELING?

Dreaming About Bigfoot…Really?…Geez…

1st Dream 2017 11 08:
There was a refrigerator and cabinets filled with food in the basement of our home and in this dream this Bigfoot type creature was getting into our basement and eating our food at night when we slept. All that I could think of was that I had to leave that house. I was frightened beyond what I could stand. I just wanted to run.
In the dream, my mother, Sara, was there. I’m not sure if she lived there with us or not but we were talking in the kitchen and we could hear Bigfoot in the basement as we talked. I told her that I just had to get out of there hoping that she would have some other suggestion but she only kept telling me that I didn’t need to leave.
I told my husband, Ross, that I couldn’t stand it and that I had to get out of there and the next thing that I knew he was down in the basement. I could hear conversation and then I heard Bigfoot screaming at Ross that he wasn’t leaving and to leave him alone.
Bigfoot screamed, “I can take your wife!”
Sara and I were still sitting in the kitchen but I could hear what the creature was screaming.
My fear heightened to the panic point.
And the dream ended.

My Thoughts:
I guess the obvious would be that no one can help me overcome my greatest fear.
This caused me to question, what is my greatest fear?
It would have to be the belief that this physical reality is real and that I am trapped here, forced to live out this human existence, until ‘God’ calls me back into some type of eternity that I have no control over. Now this is an old belief system that seems to linger on in the shadows of my memory that I have been unable to shake. It doesn’t seem to matter how much knowledge I pack into my mind the dark shadow lingers on.
I know better than this of course. I know that I am an extension of THAT WHICH IS. I know that I create my own reality. I know that I have chosen not to remember who I am for this experience on Earth. But knowing that this is true, so far, hasn’t taken me to the next ‘level’ enough to be able to shake the fear of an old memory. I still, somewhere in the dark crevices of my memory, think that Bigfoot is in the basement.
What I do know is that I want to end this fear and live as I should be living, enjoying, with all understanding, what this adventure is all about.

Prayer:
j: “Yeshua, I know that my answer is calling for me to question so I am asking for your assistance. You’ve been here. Please share with me what you know. I want to live as you live.”

2nd Dream 2017 11 25:
As the dream opens Sara and I have purchased different types of foods that are supposed to keep you healthy. One of the foods was in pie form and tasted sweet and Ross had eaten the whole pie except for one slice.  My thought was at least it’s healthy food so it’s a good thing that he likes it. I was pleased.
We had also gotten 4 white cats as we had heard that pets give you pleasure and would also help to keep you healthy. One of the cats was an adult and the other 3 were kittens; I’m not sure if the adult was the mother or not. As we were watching the cats play we were commenting on how smart they were. The cats did bring us pleasure.
We were aware that there was a creature that wanted to get into our home and we had boarded the windows and doors to keep it out but to no avail. We heard a noise outside and when we looked out there was this creature that looked similar to a Bigfoot but it was totally white. I guess that would make it an Abominable Snowman since it was all white.  And it was wearing baby blue colored clothing. I noticed specifically baby blue colored short pants. He had on some type of baby blue shirt made out of very thin material. It wasn’t buttoned. It was flapping in the breeze as he walked and was just barely hanging on his shoulders.
The creature was heading for the back door and we knew that there was no way that we could keep it out. I am terrified.
The dream ends as we are quietly sneaking out the front door.

Again, My Thoughts:
This is the 2nd time in about 2 weeks that I have had similar dreams about a Bigfoot type creature. I’m only calling it that because I have nothing else to compare it to other than a type of alien; but this creature is highly intelligent, speaks, and wears clothing!
In both of the dreams I am terrified of this creature and I am trying to live a normal life in my home with this horrible fear that this creature could come at any time.
In the 2nd dream, it seems that we must have moved, for the house in the 2nd dream is totally different from the house in the first dream which had a basement. The house in the 2nd dream is basically a doublewide or modular type home.
The creature enters the back door which is our bedroom. When he comes in we are in the front room which is the kitchen and we have an easy escape.
In the 2nd dream it seems that we are attempting to get healthier and to enjoy our life more but that still doesn’t stop the creature from coming and entering the house. It is like he has stalked us and found us at the new house.
I keep trying to understand what it is that the creature wants from us, or me. In the 1st dream he was coming in the basement and eating the food that we had stored there. He told Ross that he wanted to be left alone. He screamed, “I can take your wife.” (What does that mean?!?) And of course, Ross cannot defeat this creature.
Sara, on the other hand, was telling me that we needed to stay in the house. I obviously convinced her otherwise as we were in another house in the 2nd dream, not that it did us any good as he followed us there. So Sara knew something that I couldn’t understand because the fear was so overwhelming. All I could think was to escape.
So, Ross tries to talk to the thing and Sara thinks we should stay in the house with it. I’m thinking, “Are they nuts. Why are they not scared? They just aren’t getting this.”
But obviously I’m the one that’s not getting it…
It’s interesting to me that they are both trying to help me even though I’m not so happy with their methods. And why am I staying with them? That’s also curious to me. It’s like I want them to find my answer for me but I know that they can’t.  It still doesn’t stop me from hoping that one of them can protect me from this creature.
My normal human reaction would be to run away and leave these two with it. As frightened as I am I would have to escape. But in this dream I am staying with these two hoping that they will find a solution. Ha Ha!  And they are still trying to help me. We are now eating health foods to stay ‘healthier’. And we have 4 cats for our ‘enjoyment’.
In the 2nd dream he’s coming in the back door and we are leaving so we have no conversation with him. Is he coming in for food again? Strangely, it seems to be ‘feeding’ off of my fear.

Prayer:
j: “Yeshua, I have to stop running. As I speak to you all fear is released and is completely gone. The creature seems harmless. My thoughts are, ‘so what if he comes in the house; he can’t hurt me’. As long as I am focusing on … I still see you as my total protection. That’s not a bad thing but don’t I need to identify ‘The Christ’ within me; and with that TO KNOW that I need no protection. Is it time that I stop looking to you for my salvation and KNOW that I need no salvation. As you said, “I and the Father are One.” So I can say, “I and the Father are One,” As well.
Is it possible that you are ‘my creature’? Is that why the all-white and the baby blue clothing? Oh my goodness, I have perceived you as… How do I see you? That’s how I see you most of the time with that white robe and that baby blue wrap around your shoulders. What am I seeing? Purity, purer than I could ever become.”

Yeshua: “You still me as dualistic. You see me as savior but also judge and punisher. I am neither. I am your brother. I am Christ. You are Christ. We are ONE in The Father. We are ALL THAT IS, together as ONE.
There is no fear here. There is no judgment. There is only acceptance and a type of ‘love’ that is beyond ANY condition or circumstance.
If I am ONE with the Father and You are ONE with the Father then how could I ever judge you in any form?
There is no fear; only what you imagine that there is. See me as I am and you will see yourself as I am. ONE of ALL THAT IS”

j: “I feel you smiling. I feel your ‘love’ and acceptance. Thank you once again, and again, and again…
Why do I still keep falling back into those old beliefs? How odd, it seems that I am familiar and comfortable with fear. It gives me a certain adrenaline feeling of fight or flight. And I see this creature as being undefeatable so I choose flight in this instance. And this feeling is actually comfortable. Wow.
I am not comfortable with the thought of freedom; actually it scares me. I don’t know how to live free. If I don’t have a decision of fight or flight to make what do I do. How do I see the creature through the eyes of Freedom? As my teacher, as my friend? And then what do I do?”

Yeshua: “You can always enjoy watching the kittens play.”

j: I know that you are baiting me but I’m not sure…”

Yeshua: “Imagine the feeling that you have as you watch the kittens play. Go there. Pick one up. Feel his fur. Hear him purr. What are you feeling?”

j: “It’s the feeling. Again, I know that. I just keep forgetting, falling back into fear of loss.
I just need to keep applying it. Make the choice to feel wonderful, enjoy the feeling…
Why am I so uncomfortable with feeling wonderful? Why can’t I enjoy anything? I always have this ‘feeling’ that something will come in the back door and steal from me, take from me what is giving me happiness.”

Yeshua: “Look at the creature now. What does he look like?”

j: “You. He looks like all the religious pictures of you with the white robe and the baby blue cloth around your shoulders.”

Yeshua: “How could you see me differently that would make you more comfortable?”

j: “Actually, I’m comfortable seeing you as ‘pure’, wearing white and baby blue. Maybe if I could see myself as ‘pure’ and wearing white and baby blue? That thought feels nice but then what? What do you do if you are ‘pure’ and wearing white and baby blue.”
You’re laughing. I love it.
But my question is serious; what do you do?”

Yeshua: “Whatever I FEEL like doing. I FEEL ONENESS with My Father. I FEEL My Father’s love and acceptance. I want to always FEEL that. As ONE with My Father I have no need to have a thought of my own. I  join His Thoughts. His Thoughts are mine (pause) and yours. That is where I reside. That is my desire. That is the FEELING that I ‘call’ to me.
As for what do I do? I do nothing. I FEEL as My Father FEELS. That is what is important. That is ALL THAT THERE IS.
It isn’t about doing. It is BEING. As I AM. That’s all. I just AM.”

j: “Were you ever where I am? How did you get to where you are, just BEING?”

Yeshua: “Desire. What I desire comes to me. I desire ONENESS and that is what I have. The unity of ALL. I see nothing else. I FEEL my way. My ‘paths’ are FEELINGS of joy. Joy comes. Joy IS.”

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I AM Thankful!

A few days back I received intuition about foods and their relation to the physical body. And as this information traveled through my belief systems of physical reality, ‘my perception’ of what I received was that certain foods do hold certain energies that can and do affect my physical body.

At first this excited me as I began to think that I could just avoid those foods with lower vibrations as I identified them. This seemed like a ‘logical’ interpretation of what I was receiving as I had heard of others who have become vegetarians in order to become more in-tuned spiritually; and so my immediate interpretation was that I was receiving something that they had already known.

Now this is not to say that certain foods do not hold certain types of energies and various vibrations; in this physical reality, they do.

For me it would have become another belief system that I would have fallen back into; another prison, another maze …

Ultimately I AM Spirit. What affects my physical body is what I believe affects my physical body. My physical world mirrors Who I AM not the other way around.

Ultimately I AM the one that determines the vibrational content of my existence.

For this further revelation I AM Thankful!

j

Holy Son of God

2013 04 14 ~ How could a Holy Son of God Create a world that is Unholy?

“You didn’t. All you did is think of how a world would be without a Holy God, knowing that such a world could not be holy. You haven’t created this world, for no such world could ever be possible because there is a Holy God which is eternally unchangeable, who created His Own Holy and Perfect World of which you are a part. The thought that you had was no more than just a thought, it was not an imperfect creation within a perfect world, for that cannot be. Perfection creates only perfection. As you had the thought of how a world would be without a Perfect and Holy God, you knew that such a world could only be chaotic and unbalanced, so, within your thinking, that is how you have imagined this imperfect and unbalanced world of fantasy. This does not make you a sinner as you haven’t sinned. This does not make you separate from God because you never went anywhere. This doesn’t mean that you are lost because God knows that you are only thinking and doesn’t recognize nor participate in your imaginary world any more than you recognize or participate in another person’s dream. You are His Child created in His Image and that will never change. You are unchangeable. It is impossible to go anywhere else, simply because there is nowhere else to go. God is all there is. There is no earth, no planets, no animals or humans… God is and that is all that there is. You may think of other places and things, knowing that they would have to be imperfect “IF” God’s Kingdom did not exist, but that could never make these things be true. A world of birth and death could never exist within God as He was never born nor will He ever die, and anything that God creates, such as yourself, could only be created in the perfection that He IS. His children could never be lost because He could never be lost. Perfection could never create imperfection. Only in your thought of how a world would be without a Perfect God could an imperfect world ever be imagined, because only in your thinking could such a place ever be imagined. As you thought of how this imperfect world would be, you imagined how it would be if you lived in such a world, knowing, that your life in such an impossible world, could only be chaotic and imperfect, filled with death and inequality, with all being unequal and individual. As our true existence within Our Father’s Kingdom, all is equal and all is One, with no division, whole and complete. God IS and This Is All That Is. No amount of imagination could ever change that fact. You can do no more harm than to think how another world could be. You cannot create anything any different because nothing any different from God can be created. So if you still are thinking that God created an imperfect world with imperfect creatures that could choose to disobey; that is all that you are doing, just thinking. Your thoughts of hell do not make hell a real place. Your thoughts of a world of murder could never make you a murderer. You may think that you are living in this imaginary imperfect world, where God created a man and a woman who made the choice to eat from a tree that was forbidden, but that doesn’t make that story true. You can think what you want, believe God to be a god of judgment and punishment, a god that demands perfect obedience to imperfect if you care to, but your thinking can never change the fact that your God is all and all Perfect Love and Peace, and a God of Perfect Love and Peace could never see His Children in any other form than what they truly are, His Perfect Creation as His own Love and Peace could only create. The only hell that has ever existed has been in your mind, knowing that a world without God’s Perfection could only be hell. And that is a true thought. Think. Where are you right now? You are safe within your Father’s Kingdom where you have always been and always will be. It would be impossible for you to leave. Any reference to you leaving and returning, being lost and needing salvation are only metaphoric terms used for teaching purposes. If you think that you are lost, then you will think that you need a savior to lead you home. Symbolism in this format is only useful if you have been afraid or cannot believe the real truth. If you think of me as your savior who has the ability to help you, then that will be our first step in understanding, as I can open the door to your mind and lead your thoughts back home. You have not and could not ever leave your home, you have only wondered off in your own thoughts, thinking them to be true. Nothing has changed for you, God is not mad at you. He has not kicked you out of His Holy Garden. You have done no wrong, you only think that you have and your own guilt imagines more and more punishments for you. You do not live within this chaotic world that you have imagined. Many, many books have been written, stating that a Perfect God created a world that became imperfect, but just because it was written in a book, that doesn’t make it true. Sermons are preached daily about this sinful world, but just because someone preaches it, doesn’t make it true. How could every sermon be true within a chaotic world filled with different religions? These are all just thoughts based on guilt, thinking that you have sinned against God and are damned for punishment without repentance. The only repentance that is needed, (repentance meaning complete change), is a complete change of thought. You have had the thought of how a world could be without a Perfect God. You knew this world would have to be a hell without Your God which was a correct thought. You have explored this thought system to its completion, knowing that such a world could only be a world of hate and murder. You have imagined every scenario trying to think of a way in which a non-peaceful world could find peace, knowing that this could never be possible. You know now that a world without God could never ‘find’ God or become like God if He did not exist. It is time to bring your thinking home. You have explored every aspect of that scenario and found it crazy and impossible. Anyone living in such a world could only experience pain and sadness. However, no such world exists, nor could it ever possibly exist. Perfection cannot create imperfection so what a waste of time to think about such a thing. We have learned a great lesson from these thoughts that assure us of God’s Truth. God Is and Nothing Else Is. It doesn’t matter if you don’t believe this or you happen to have another thought, that doesn’t change God just because you think that He is something that He isn’t and it doesn’t change you from being His Son and Perfect Creation just because you imagine yourself to be living in a world without God. You don’t and that Is God’s Truth. You are His Image. You are within Him. He doesn’t change and neither can you. You cannot fall from grace any more than He can. Your God is eternal, perfect and complete, and there is no thought that could ever change that. And you being within Him are also eternal, perfect and complete, lacking nothing. It doesn’t matter if you think of yourself as a prodigal son, and think that you have to return as a slave to be fed. Your Father Knows You Are His Son, not his slave, not his servant, His Son. You have always and only been His Son, nothing more, nothing less. And you will always be His Son, His Perfect Son, whole and complete in Him. This will never change. It cannot change. What is within God is God and that is all That There Is.”

What a waste of time, this thinking. I don’t want to think any more :0). Imperfection can never become perfect any more than perfection can become imperfection. I am not a lost person that needs to be found. I am at home with My Father and I will forever be in His Presence. I think that I will think on these thoughts for a while, until all other useless ‘thinkings’ disappear from my thoughts. This would be the Mind of Christ, Yeshua, am I correct here?

“You are correct. You are the Mind of Christ”

Are? As in part of?

“As in being, just be.”

And stop imagining other scenarios right?

“There are no other.”

New Information Coming Through

If I had only known this 25 years ago ~

New information coming through first appears to me symbolically as unknown, or scary because my body consciousness is fighting back against something that it cannot identify. It’s only defense is to try and protect me from what it doesn’t recognize and ‘reacts’ with fight or flight which I interpret as something fearful or dangerous that could possibly hurt me.

I had a dream in April in which I was running down a path and as I am running a young male dear runs toward me from the right side and slams into my body. In the dream I was carrying the baby dear and holding its head in my hands as I ran because it wouldn’t be still. I felt that I had to hold it or it would hurt me again. I remember looking at it to make sure that it didn’t have horns and it didn’t but I was still holding its head.

I had another dream this September and in the dream I was walking on this dirt path through a woodsy area and I heard someone’s voice from behind the bushes making different animal noises. The last sound that I remember hearing was someone trying to meow like a cat.
As I was walking down the path I knew that I was dreaming and I was wondering what the fake animal sounds were supposed to represent.
As I typed the dream I realized that the woods were not real. It was like I was walking through the props of a movie set with plastic trees and shrubs.

I realize today how prophetic these dreams were but at the time I had no clue what they meant. Both of these dreams were to show me that my perception is based on what I believe to be true. And just because I believe it doesn’t make it true. A baby deer cannot hurt me. And in the same manner if I had stopped to identify the animal sounds, I would have seen that it was just a kitten meowing. My dream was trying to get my attention to show me that my perception was fake. There was nothing to fear. But I was afraid to look.

Of all the visions and dreams that I have experienced over the last 25 or so years… if I just could have understood this. Just this recognition is my salvation. And today is a New Day.

My ‘New Information’ for today is to begin to recognize something that I ‘see’ to be frightening as new information coming through. Upon this recognition, I am alerting my body consciousness that there is nothing to fear. This is only new information coming through that is to be accepted and welcomed.

Nothing real can be threatened. Nothing unreal exists. Herein lies the peace of God. ACIM-T-in.2