The Mega Dream

The Mega DreamI woke up hearing a voice saying, “I did not pursue the Mega Dream.”

It was as if I was overhearing a conversation that two other people were having. Perhaps it was a counterpart of mine? At any rate, if I didn’t pursue the Mega Dream, I am pursuing it now. Which makes me ask the question, what is the Mega Dream?

My thought was of Daniel in the lions’ den and not being eaten by the lions; and the 3 Hebrew children that were thrown in the fire and were not burned. (Which makes me wonder, once again, if these stories were reality? Were these men actually enlightened figures on this planet or were the stories just an attempt to describe enlightenment within a story that people of that time period, and this one, could understand?)

I do not think that the Mega Dream would be a physical ‘heaven’ on Earth but that regardless, or in spite of Earth, I reside in a heavenly state of being.

My thoughts are free and open to intuition. My feelings are pure and peaceful. I am assured of who I am and that dreams cannot hurt me. I feel joy.

My heart is free to pursue happiness, wholeness; to be complete and unaffected by the dream, any dream.

That’s my idea of the Mega Dream.

 

As I was typing this my curiosity said that I should look up mega. I looked up the definition of the word mega and it said: Surpassing other examples of its kind; extraordinary, very good; successful.

This made me think, just for a second, that maybe I had misinterpreted the voice of the message. (Second guessing, again; what a waste of ‘time’. He He. How many times have I fallen for ‘that second thought’? Way too many!)

BUT I can’t deny the FEELING that I had as I heard the voice, that I could have been pursuing that ultimate feeling, that ultimate place or state of being where nothing physical matters.

I was right the first time.

j

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There is Nothing to Fear

Now I’m dreaming about a Bear…What’s this all about?

Dream 2017 12 05:

In this dream, Our Daughter, Our Son-N-Law, and their kids had been visiting us and My Mother was with them. It seems like Our Son-N-Law had brought something to the house and he had assembled something in the back yard but I can’t remember what it was but they had been there quite a while. We had eaten and were just visiting.

When they started to leave this huge bear began to circle the house so that they were afraid to go out to get in the car. There were other large animals outside also but I couldn’t identify what they were other than they seemed to be white or light colored. The bear was dark brown and huge.

Our house, in the dream, was the same with only minor detail changes. There were 2 garage doors and there were doors where the windows are in My Husband’s music room and in my study. The fence wasn’t there as the bear could circle the house with no fence restrictions.

Our Son-N-Law kept going from one door to the next trying to figure out the quickest way to get to the car. The quickest way was to go out one of the garage doors but I was afraid that the bear would get in before I could get the garage door back down. He realized that I was too frightened to allow him to open the garage doors so he backed off and began to look for another way out.

At one time I noticed that the back door was open, only the screen was shut, and I ran to shut it as the bear was just passing by that door. I remember thinking that he could have come straight through that screen without a problem but he walked by as if he didn’t notice that the door was open. I was relieved.

Our Son-N-Law had decided that they would go out the front door and run to the car. He had Our Daughter and the kids gathered at the door ready to run outside while the bear was circling the back of the house.

My Mother was supposed to ride back with them. Our Son-N-Law turns around to get My Mother but she is on our landline phone to her pharmacy getting instructions about taking a new medicine that she had just started taking. The medicine was for an ongoing health issue that she had.

She had injured her left hand somehow and it was bandaged and in the process of healing. The pharmacist was explaining to her how to unwrap her injured hand in order to take the new medication and then wrap the hand back up. I could hear the whole conversation and I remember thinking, how crazy is that, why can’t she just take the medicine with her right hand?

She has no fear and doesn’t act as if the bear is a problem. It’s as if she is totally confident that Our Son-N-Law will handle the situation. She is waiting on him to figure things out and when he does she will just get in the car and ride back with them.

I could tell that Our Son-N-Law was upset as he was ready to go out the front door to get everyone in the car while the bear was circling the back of the house but My Mother was on the phone to her pharmacy as if nothing was happening. He was being patient and pretending not to be upset as he waited for her to finish her phone call.
The dream ends.

 

 

My Thoughts:

Once again, as I wake up terrified, I look back on the dream wondering, what is this all about? Outside of Bigfoot, bears would be my next biggest fear. I’m not sure what the Bigfoot fear is about other than the fact that my father believed that such a creature did exist. “Of course they exist! There’s just too much evidence!” I can hear him now. It gave me a creepy feeling as a child to know that he ‘knew’ about this creature and believed that it existed. I think children… Ah heck I don’t know about other children. I just know that it frightened me that he said it was real. I wish he had lied.

As for the bear fear, I had read a story, in Reader’s Digest, when I was very young, about a group of teenagers camping in the woods. One of the girls had wondered off into the woods alone to use the restroom and was attacked and killed by a bear. Her friends could hear her screaming but they were all too frightened to go and help her. She was screaming that the bear was pulling her arms off. She kept screaming for help but her friends were paralyzed and sat by the campfire until morning when they finally got enough courage to go looking for her and they found what was left of her body. The story was written by one of the boys at the camp many years later as he had lived in horrible guilt for not trying to save her.
If a bear is ever mentioned that’s exactly where my mind goes back to.

OR – Who knows, I could have been killed by a similar animal in a past life and the fears are just carryovers of some kind.

At any rate, these two creatures are my greatest fear on planet Earth which is actually irrelevant other than the fact that I am now having dreams about them. What the heck is all this about?

 

Prayer:

j: Yeshua, it’s 3:12am, what you up to? I feel you smiling. Can you help me out here? What the heck is this dream about? Surely you are not going to tell me that I am seeing you as a bear?

Yeshua: Every character in this dream is a representation of part of you.

j: Oh, well, Okay… (I’m thinking about each character in the dream…and relating)
Our Daughter and the kids are waiting on Our Son-N-Law to fix the problem.
Our Son-N-Law, although he is frightened, he is looking for an answer. Although he is just running away, he is trying to save those that are depending on him. He is also aggravated when others won’t cooperate but he pretends that he is just being patient, while he waits, when actually what he wants to do is to scream,  “Every one of you, get your butts out the front door and get in the car before the bear gets back around the house and kills one of us!”
My Husband is just quiet and watching.
My Mother is entangled with confusing, aggravating, issues of life, while depending on Our Son-N-Law to fix the life threatening issue. But then making him wait for her to finish what she is doing before she complies with the solution that he has provided for her.
And my character is just frightened for myself and for everyone. I don’t seem to have a solution or to even be looking for a solution other than to stay inside with the doors closed and hope that the creatures will go away and my home will be safe and wonderful again.
Yeah, I guess I’m all of those things and I bounce from one personality to the other; very interesting.
Yet this goes back, once again, to my greatest fear being my belief that all of this is real. I still hold the belief that I am trapped here in need of a savior… which is why I keep coming to you. You are still that figure for me, that savior figure that I found and have looked to since I was 13. Wow, enlightening. I still look to you as my savior. You are safe.
So how can I bring all this schizophrenia into one character and get some kind of peace?

Yeshua: Peace is not a place. Peace is a state of being. Remember who you are. There are no bears in spirit; no Bigfoot. There is nothing to fear in spirit.
You call me your savior for you are afraid of being alone. You are afraid of depending upon the God that is within you. It is the same God that is within me. I’m not going to leave you. I will always be here and you can perceive me as anything that feels comfortable; savior, big brother, Holy Spirit…there are no rules. We are all the same. There is nothing to fear. Look within. I am there. You are there. That is All That There Is.

 

NOTE:

I used to wonder about those people that say that they can interpret your dreams for you. You know, the ones that just study symbols and have no real intuition of spiritual insight. More and more I understand why no one else can interpret what you see as an individual. Your ‘symbols’ are very personal to you.
At first glance, the dreams about Bigfoot and the bear were very much alike and should have had the same meaning for me. Although they both symbolized fears that I held ‘an interpreter’ could very easily have missed the differences.

 

j: Thank You My Brother.
Uh… By the way, were all those other characters in the Bigfoot dream representatives of my own personality as well as they were in this dream?
Ha Ha. I feel you smiling.

How Are You FEELING?

Dreaming About Bigfoot…Really?…Geez…

1st Dream 2017 11 08:
There was a refrigerator and cabinets filled with food in the basement of our home and in this dream this Bigfoot type creature was getting into our basement and eating our food at night when we slept. All that I could think of was that I had to leave that house. I was frightened beyond what I could stand. I just wanted to run.
In the dream, my mother, Sara, was there. I’m not sure if she lived there with us or not but we were talking in the kitchen and we could hear Bigfoot in the basement as we talked. I told her that I just had to get out of there hoping that she would have some other suggestion but she only kept telling me that I didn’t need to leave.
I told my husband, Ross, that I couldn’t stand it and that I had to get out of there and the next thing that I knew he was down in the basement. I could hear conversation and then I heard Bigfoot screaming at Ross that he wasn’t leaving and to leave him alone.
Bigfoot screamed, “I can take your wife!”
Sara and I were still sitting in the kitchen but I could hear what the creature was screaming.
My fear heightened to the panic point.
And the dream ended.

My Thoughts:
I guess the obvious would be that no one can help me overcome my greatest fear.
This caused me to question, what is my greatest fear?
It would have to be the belief that this physical reality is real and that I am trapped here, forced to live out this human existence, until ‘God’ calls me back into some type of eternity that I have no control over. Now this is an old belief system that seems to linger on in the shadows of my memory that I have been unable to shake. It doesn’t seem to matter how much knowledge I pack into my mind the dark shadow lingers on.
I know better than this of course. I know that I am an extension of THAT WHICH IS. I know that I create my own reality. I know that I have chosen not to remember who I am for this experience on Earth. But knowing that this is true, so far, hasn’t taken me to the next ‘level’ enough to be able to shake the fear of an old memory. I still, somewhere in the dark crevices of my memory, think that Bigfoot is in the basement.
What I do know is that I want to end this fear and live as I should be living, enjoying, with all understanding, what this adventure is all about.

Prayer:
j: “Yeshua, I know that my answer is calling for me to question so I am asking for your assistance. You’ve been here. Please share with me what you know. I want to live as you live.”

2nd Dream 2017 11 25:
As the dream opens Sara and I have purchased different types of foods that are supposed to keep you healthy. One of the foods was in pie form and tasted sweet and Ross had eaten the whole pie except for one slice.  My thought was at least it’s healthy food so it’s a good thing that he likes it. I was pleased.
We had also gotten 4 white cats as we had heard that pets give you pleasure and would also help to keep you healthy. One of the cats was an adult and the other 3 were kittens; I’m not sure if the adult was the mother or not. As we were watching the cats play we were commenting on how smart they were. The cats did bring us pleasure.
We were aware that there was a creature that wanted to get into our home and we had boarded the windows and doors to keep it out but to no avail. We heard a noise outside and when we looked out there was this creature that looked similar to a Bigfoot but it was totally white. I guess that would make it an Abominable Snowman since it was all white.  And it was wearing baby blue colored clothing. I noticed specifically baby blue colored short pants. He had on some type of baby blue shirt made out of very thin material. It wasn’t buttoned. It was flapping in the breeze as he walked and was just barely hanging on his shoulders.
The creature was heading for the back door and we knew that there was no way that we could keep it out. I am terrified.
The dream ends as we are quietly sneaking out the front door.

Again, My Thoughts:
This is the 2nd time in about 2 weeks that I have had similar dreams about a Bigfoot type creature. I’m only calling it that because I have nothing else to compare it to other than a type of alien; but this creature is highly intelligent, speaks, and wears clothing!
In both of the dreams I am terrified of this creature and I am trying to live a normal life in my home with this horrible fear that this creature could come at any time.
In the 2nd dream, it seems that we must have moved, for the house in the 2nd dream is totally different from the house in the first dream which had a basement. The house in the 2nd dream is basically a doublewide or modular type home.
The creature enters the back door which is our bedroom. When he comes in we are in the front room which is the kitchen and we have an easy escape.
In the 2nd dream it seems that we are attempting to get healthier and to enjoy our life more but that still doesn’t stop the creature from coming and entering the house. It is like he has stalked us and found us at the new house.
I keep trying to understand what it is that the creature wants from us, or me. In the 1st dream he was coming in the basement and eating the food that we had stored there. He told Ross that he wanted to be left alone. He screamed, “I can take your wife.” (What does that mean?!?) And of course, Ross cannot defeat this creature.
Sara, on the other hand, was telling me that we needed to stay in the house. I obviously convinced her otherwise as we were in another house in the 2nd dream, not that it did us any good as he followed us there. So Sara knew something that I couldn’t understand because the fear was so overwhelming. All I could think was to escape.
So, Ross tries to talk to the thing and Sara thinks we should stay in the house with it. I’m thinking, “Are they nuts. Why are they not scared? They just aren’t getting this.”
But obviously I’m the one that’s not getting it…
It’s interesting to me that they are both trying to help me even though I’m not so happy with their methods. And why am I staying with them? That’s also curious to me. It’s like I want them to find my answer for me but I know that they can’t.  It still doesn’t stop me from hoping that one of them can protect me from this creature.
My normal human reaction would be to run away and leave these two with it. As frightened as I am I would have to escape. But in this dream I am staying with these two hoping that they will find a solution. Ha Ha!  And they are still trying to help me. We are now eating health foods to stay ‘healthier’. And we have 4 cats for our ‘enjoyment’.
In the 2nd dream he’s coming in the back door and we are leaving so we have no conversation with him. Is he coming in for food again? Strangely, it seems to be ‘feeding’ off of my fear.

Prayer:
j: “Yeshua, I have to stop running. As I speak to you all fear is released and is completely gone. The creature seems harmless. My thoughts are, ‘so what if he comes in the house; he can’t hurt me’. As long as I am focusing on … I still see you as my total protection. That’s not a bad thing but don’t I need to identify ‘The Christ’ within me; and with that TO KNOW that I need no protection. Is it time that I stop looking to you for my salvation and KNOW that I need no salvation. As you said, “I and the Father are One.” So I can say, “I and the Father are One,” As well.
Is it possible that you are ‘my creature’? Is that why the all-white and the baby blue clothing? Oh my goodness, I have perceived you as… How do I see you? That’s how I see you most of the time with that white robe and that baby blue wrap around your shoulders. What am I seeing? Purity, purer than I could ever become.”

Yeshua: “You still me as dualistic. You see me as savior but also judge and punisher. I am neither. I am your brother. I am Christ. You are Christ. We are ONE in The Father. We are ALL THAT IS, together as ONE.
There is no fear here. There is no judgment. There is only acceptance and a type of ‘love’ that is beyond ANY condition or circumstance.
If I am ONE with the Father and You are ONE with the Father then how could I ever judge you in any form?
There is no fear; only what you imagine that there is. See me as I am and you will see yourself as I am. ONE of ALL THAT IS”

j: “I feel you smiling. I feel your ‘love’ and acceptance. Thank you once again, and again, and again…
Why do I still keep falling back into those old beliefs? How odd, it seems that I am familiar and comfortable with fear. It gives me a certain adrenaline feeling of fight or flight. And I see this creature as being undefeatable so I choose flight in this instance. And this feeling is actually comfortable. Wow.
I am not comfortable with the thought of freedom; actually it scares me. I don’t know how to live free. If I don’t have a decision of fight or flight to make what do I do. How do I see the creature through the eyes of Freedom? As my teacher, as my friend? And then what do I do?”

Yeshua: “You can always enjoy watching the kittens play.”

j: I know that you are baiting me but I’m not sure…”

Yeshua: “Imagine the feeling that you have as you watch the kittens play. Go there. Pick one up. Feel his fur. Hear him purr. What are you feeling?”

j: “It’s the feeling. Again, I know that. I just keep forgetting, falling back into fear of loss.
I just need to keep applying it. Make the choice to feel wonderful, enjoy the feeling…
Why am I so uncomfortable with feeling wonderful? Why can’t I enjoy anything? I always have this ‘feeling’ that something will come in the back door and steal from me, take from me what is giving me happiness.”

Yeshua: “Look at the creature now. What does he look like?”

j: “You. He looks like all the religious pictures of you with the white robe and the baby blue cloth around your shoulders.”

Yeshua: “How could you see me differently that would make you more comfortable?”

j: “Actually, I’m comfortable seeing you as ‘pure’, wearing white and baby blue. Maybe if I could see myself as ‘pure’ and wearing white and baby blue? That thought feels nice but then what? What do you do if you are ‘pure’ and wearing white and baby blue.”
You’re laughing. I love it.
But my question is serious; what do you do?”

Yeshua: “Whatever I FEEL like doing. I FEEL ONENESS with My Father. I FEEL My Father’s love and acceptance. I want to always FEEL that. As ONE with My Father I have no need to have a thought of my own. I  join His Thoughts. His Thoughts are mine (pause) and yours. That is where I reside. That is my desire. That is the FEELING that I ‘call’ to me.
As for what do I do? I do nothing. I FEEL as My Father FEELS. That is what is important. That is ALL THAT THERE IS.
It isn’t about doing. It is BEING. As I AM. That’s all. I just AM.”

j: “Were you ever where I am? How did you get to where you are, just BEING?”

Yeshua: “Desire. What I desire comes to me. I desire ONENESS and that is what I have. The unity of ALL. I see nothing else. I FEEL my way. My ‘paths’ are FEELINGS of joy. Joy comes. Joy IS.”

Perception and Prophecy

Along with many, many others, I have ‘seen’ many dreams and visions of battles and wars and enemies attacking. These enemies have been ‘seen’ in many forms from demonic spirits to physical representations of countries warring against each other. Religions have been established upon such dreams and visions.

We are in a transition period of making big choices within a major shift in consciousness in this dimension. Our perception has been, within dreams and visions, of extreme trauma and fear of coming disasters and of wanting to escape these disasters.

We have seen this ‘coming’ shift as something to fear because it has been unknown to us so we are ‘re-acting’ to what we perceive as being something we need to either fight or run from.

In our choice to run we have perceived our escape in different forms of being raptured away. And in our choice for battle we have ‘seen’ armies killing and destroying what we fear to be our enemies.

Many dreams and visions have been interpreted in these manners as we have been so afraid of change. But there is nothing to fear in God.

Our perceptions have been of a god that we have interpreted from a human standpoint of having feelings as we feel and seeing as we see and ‘re-acting accordingly. But God Acts. God does not re-act.

We perceive based on what we believe to be true and we re-act in that manner but we have miss-interpreted many dreams and visions as fearful and calling for battle when in truth our dreams are just our perceptions.

This shift in consciousness that we are experiencing is asking us to widen our awareness, to see more of what is and less of what we might believe to be true.

New Information Coming Through

If I had only known this 25 years ago ~

New information coming through first appears to me symbolically as unknown, or scary because my body consciousness is fighting back against something that it cannot identify. It’s only defense is to try and protect me from what it doesn’t recognize and ‘reacts’ with fight or flight which I interpret as something fearful or dangerous that could possibly hurt me.

I had a dream in April in which I was running down a path and as I am running a young male dear runs toward me from the right side and slams into my body. In the dream I was carrying the baby dear and holding its head in my hands as I ran because it wouldn’t be still. I felt that I had to hold it or it would hurt me again. I remember looking at it to make sure that it didn’t have horns and it didn’t but I was still holding its head.

I had another dream this September and in the dream I was walking on this dirt path through a woodsy area and I heard someone’s voice from behind the bushes making different animal noises. The last sound that I remember hearing was someone trying to meow like a cat.
As I was walking down the path I knew that I was dreaming and I was wondering what the fake animal sounds were supposed to represent.
As I typed the dream I realized that the woods were not real. It was like I was walking through the props of a movie set with plastic trees and shrubs.

I realize today how prophetic these dreams were but at the time I had no clue what they meant. Both of these dreams were to show me that my perception is based on what I believe to be true. And just because I believe it doesn’t make it true. A baby deer cannot hurt me. And in the same manner if I had stopped to identify the animal sounds, I would have seen that it was just a kitten meowing. My dream was trying to get my attention to show me that my perception was fake. There was nothing to fear. But I was afraid to look.

Of all the visions and dreams that I have experienced over the last 25 or so years… if I just could have understood this. Just this recognition is my salvation. And today is a New Day.

My ‘New Information’ for today is to begin to recognize something that I ‘see’ to be frightening as new information coming through. Upon this recognition, I am alerting my body consciousness that there is nothing to fear. This is only new information coming through that is to be accepted and welcomed.

Nothing real can be threatened. Nothing unreal exists. Herein lies the peace of God. ACIM-T-in.2