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Dreaming About Bigfoot…Really?…Geez…

1st Dream 2017 11 08:
There was a refrigerator and cabinets filled with food in the basement of our home and in this dream this Bigfoot type creature was getting into our basement and eating our food at night when we slept. All that I could think of was that I had to leave that house. I was frightened beyond what I could stand. I just wanted to run.
In the dream, my mother, Sara, was there. I’m not sure if she lived there with us or not but we were talking in the kitchen and we could hear Bigfoot in the basement as we talked. I told her that I just had to get out of there hoping that she would have some other suggestion but she only kept telling me that I didn’t need to leave.
I told my husband, Ross, that I couldn’t stand it and that I had to get out of there and the next thing that I knew he was down in the basement. I could hear conversation and then I heard Bigfoot screaming at Ross that he wasn’t leaving and to leave him alone.
Bigfoot screamed, “I can take your wife!”
Sara and I were still sitting in the kitchen but I could hear what the creature was screaming.
My fear heightened to the panic point.
And the dream ended.

My Thoughts:
I guess the obvious would be that no one can help me overcome my greatest fear.
This caused me to question, what is my greatest fear?
It would have to be the belief that this physical reality is real and that I am trapped here, forced to live out this human existence, until ‘God’ calls me back into some type of eternity that I have no control over. Now this is an old belief system that seems to linger on in the shadows of my memory that I have been unable to shake. It doesn’t seem to matter how much knowledge I pack into my mind the dark shadow lingers on.
I know better than this of course. I know that I am an extension of THAT WHICH IS. I know that I create my own reality. I know that I have chosen not to remember who I am for this experience on Earth. But knowing that this is true, so far, hasn’t taken me to the next ‘level’ enough to be able to shake the fear of an old memory. I still, somewhere in the dark crevices of my memory, think that Bigfoot is in the basement.
What I do know is that I want to end this fear and live as I should be living, enjoying, with all understanding, what this adventure is all about.

Prayer:
j: “Yeshua, I know that my answer is calling for me to question so I am asking for your assistance. You’ve been here. Please share with me what you know. I want to live as you live.”

2nd Dream 2017 11 25:
As the dream opens Sara and I have purchased different types of foods that are supposed to keep you healthy. One of the foods was in pie form and tasted sweet and Ross had eaten the whole pie except for one slice.  My thought was at least it’s healthy food so it’s a good thing that he likes it. I was pleased.
We had also gotten 4 white cats as we had heard that pets give you pleasure and would also help to keep you healthy. One of the cats was an adult and the other 3 were kittens; I’m not sure if the adult was the mother or not. As we were watching the cats play we were commenting on how smart they were. The cats did bring us pleasure.
We were aware that there was a creature that wanted to get into our home and we had boarded the windows and doors to keep it out but to no avail. We heard a noise outside and when we looked out there was this creature that looked similar to a Bigfoot but it was totally white. I guess that would make it an Abominable Snowman since it was all white.  And it was wearing baby blue colored clothing. I noticed specifically baby blue colored short pants. He had on some type of baby blue shirt made out of very thin material. It wasn’t buttoned. It was flapping in the breeze as he walked and was just barely hanging on his shoulders.
The creature was heading for the back door and we knew that there was no way that we could keep it out. I am terrified.
The dream ends as we are quietly sneaking out the front door.

Again, My Thoughts:
This is the 2nd time in about 2 weeks that I have had similar dreams about a Bigfoot type creature. I’m only calling it that because I have nothing else to compare it to other than a type of alien; but this creature is highly intelligent, speaks, and wears clothing!
In both of the dreams I am terrified of this creature and I am trying to live a normal life in my home with this horrible fear that this creature could come at any time.
In the 2nd dream, it seems that we must have moved, for the house in the 2nd dream is totally different from the house in the first dream which had a basement. The house in the 2nd dream is basically a doublewide or modular type home.
The creature enters the back door which is our bedroom. When he comes in we are in the front room which is the kitchen and we have an easy escape.
In the 2nd dream it seems that we are attempting to get healthier and to enjoy our life more but that still doesn’t stop the creature from coming and entering the house. It is like he has stalked us and found us at the new house.
I keep trying to understand what it is that the creature wants from us, or me. In the 1st dream he was coming in the basement and eating the food that we had stored there. He told Ross that he wanted to be left alone. He screamed, “I can take your wife.” (What does that mean?!?) And of course, Ross cannot defeat this creature.
Sara, on the other hand, was telling me that we needed to stay in the house. I obviously convinced her otherwise as we were in another house in the 2nd dream, not that it did us any good as he followed us there. So Sara knew something that I couldn’t understand because the fear was so overwhelming. All I could think was to escape.
So, Ross tries to talk to the thing and Sara thinks we should stay in the house with it. I’m thinking, “Are they nuts. Why are they not scared? They just aren’t getting this.”
But obviously I’m the one that’s not getting it…
It’s interesting to me that they are both trying to help me even though I’m not so happy with their methods. And why am I staying with them? That’s also curious to me. It’s like I want them to find my answer for me but I know that they can’t.  It still doesn’t stop me from hoping that one of them can protect me from this creature.
My normal human reaction would be to run away and leave these two with it. As frightened as I am I would have to escape. But in this dream I am staying with these two hoping that they will find a solution. Ha Ha!  And they are still trying to help me. We are now eating health foods to stay ‘healthier’. And we have 4 cats for our ‘enjoyment’.
In the 2nd dream he’s coming in the back door and we are leaving so we have no conversation with him. Is he coming in for food again? Strangely, it seems to be ‘feeding’ off of my fear.

Prayer:
j: “Yeshua, I have to stop running. As I speak to you all fear is released and is completely gone. The creature seems harmless. My thoughts are, ‘so what if he comes in the house; he can’t hurt me’. As long as I am focusing on … I still see you as my total protection. That’s not a bad thing but don’t I need to identify ‘The Christ’ within me; and with that TO KNOW that I need no protection. Is it time that I stop looking to you for my salvation and KNOW that I need no salvation. As you said, “I and the Father are One.” So I can say, “I and the Father are One,” As well.
Is it possible that you are ‘my creature’? Is that why the all-white and the baby blue clothing? Oh my goodness, I have perceived you as… How do I see you? That’s how I see you most of the time with that white robe and that baby blue wrap around your shoulders. What am I seeing? Purity, purer than I could ever become.”

Yeshua: “You still me as dualistic. You see me as savior but also judge and punisher. I am neither. I am your brother. I am Christ. You are Christ. We are ONE in The Father. We are ALL THAT IS, together as ONE.
There is no fear here. There is no judgment. There is only acceptance and a type of ‘love’ that is beyond ANY condition or circumstance.
If I am ONE with the Father and You are ONE with the Father then how could I ever judge you in any form?
There is no fear; only what you imagine that there is. See me as I am and you will see yourself as I am. ONE of ALL THAT IS”

j: “I feel you smiling. I feel your ‘love’ and acceptance. Thank you once again, and again, and again…
Why do I still keep falling back into those old beliefs? How odd, it seems that I am familiar and comfortable with fear. It gives me a certain adrenaline feeling of fight or flight. And I see this creature as being undefeatable so I choose flight in this instance. And this feeling is actually comfortable. Wow.
I am not comfortable with the thought of freedom; actually it scares me. I don’t know how to live free. If I don’t have a decision of fight or flight to make what do I do. How do I see the creature through the eyes of Freedom? As my teacher, as my friend? And then what do I do?”

Yeshua: “You can always enjoy watching the kittens play.”

j: I know that you are baiting me but I’m not sure…”

Yeshua: “Imagine the feeling that you have as you watch the kittens play. Go there. Pick one up. Feel his fur. Hear him purr. What are you feeling?”

j: “It’s the feeling. Again, I know that. I just keep forgetting, falling back into fear of loss.
I just need to keep applying it. Make the choice to feel wonderful, enjoy the feeling…
Why am I so uncomfortable with feeling wonderful? Why can’t I enjoy anything? I always have this ‘feeling’ that something will come in the back door and steal from me, take from me what is giving me happiness.”

Yeshua: “Look at the creature now. What does he look like?”

j: “You. He looks like all the religious pictures of you with the white robe and the baby blue cloth around your shoulders.”

Yeshua: “How could you see me differently that would make you more comfortable?”

j: “Actually, I’m comfortable seeing you as ‘pure’, wearing white and baby blue. Maybe if I could see myself as ‘pure’ and wearing white and baby blue? That thought feels nice but then what? What do you do if you are ‘pure’ and wearing white and baby blue.”
You’re laughing. I love it.
But my question is serious; what do you do?”

Yeshua: “Whatever I FEEL like doing. I FEEL ONENESS with My Father. I FEEL My Father’s love and acceptance. I want to always FEEL that. As ONE with My Father I have no need to have a thought of my own. I  join His Thoughts. His Thoughts are mine (pause) and yours. That is where I reside. That is my desire. That is the FEELING that I ‘call’ to me.
As for what do I do? I do nothing. I FEEL as My Father FEELS. That is what is important. That is ALL THAT THERE IS.
It isn’t about doing. It is BEING. As I AM. That’s all. I just AM.”

j: “Were you ever where I am? How did you get to where you are, just BEING?”

Yeshua: “Desire. What I desire comes to me. I desire ONENESS and that is what I have. The unity of ALL. I see nothing else. I FEEL my way. My ‘paths’ are FEELINGS of joy. Joy comes. Joy IS.”

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