Who I Am

During the night, once again, I was asking for help to recognize and experience Who I Am. Every vision that I could conger up was of a separation between what I have known to be my reality on earth and what I want to experience of My Father’s World. I wanted nothing more to do with 3rd density Earth existence. I wanted completely away from it. I wanted it wiped from my memory, GONE!
But I noticed that I kept going back to what I had enjoyed here and I thought for a long time about my life with my husband, the joys that I have had with my girls, Jekyll Island, even ‘worshiping’ God, even though that required a permission slip to see My Father as a separate being from myself, which in actuality I do have an individual essence of a sort, at least that is my understanding. At any rate I So Enjoyed Worship and Praise and the feeling of unity with My Father.
I thought about the talks that I have had with my mother. I thought back when my son was a little boy and how pleasant and funny that he was. I thought of my horses and how they represented freedom to me, of how I love swimming and how I miss doing that now, dancing, singing, working in my garden, riding my bike, drawing, painting my house and constantly redecorating… on and on I remembered the joys. Then my mind kept going back to the fence that I wanted to put across the back of our property and the roof that I wanted for the back patio. And if I had some money that I should see about having my teeth fixed and then I got mad at myself for thinking about ‘accepting’ something artificial in my mouth besides real teeth…yuck. I should be able to create REAL teeth.
Slowly…because I can be a little thick sometimes…I began to recognize that I was receiving the revelation that I had been BEGGING for. I WAS experiencing Who I Am. I Am a creator and it’s okay if I create what makes me happy and it’s okay if I create in 3rd density or 4th or 5th or 6th density. It’s okay if I create on Earth or Mars or Pandora or Heaven. I Am A Creator and I have been trying to imagine myself enmeshed somehow within My Father, with no imagination of my own.
I wanted the veil removed BUT THEN WHAT? I didn’t know. All I knew was that I didn’t want the pain of this Earth hurting me anymore and I knew that My Father was my answer to my health and peace and joy. The revelation that I found myself receiving was that I Am and Can Be healed and happy and full of joy in my own individual creations. I don’t have to give that part of myself away to experience My Father’s Peace and Love.
What I found out was that I don’t have to SEPARATE myself from anything or to anything. I just need to be Who I Am wherever I care to be. I am a creator and it is within my power to BE happy and free and peaceful.
I can be a swimmer. I can be an artist. I can love my husband. I can enjoy my kids. I can collect angel statues and paint ceramic cats and ducks if that is my choice. I can plant 50 daffodils and enjoy their beauty when they bloom. I can plan to put a fence in my backyard and a roof over my patio if that is what I choose. And I can create real teeth.  What would Jesus do? Ha Ha, whatever he wants to do, that’s what he would do. Whatever the heck he feels like doing is what he does! So I guess that means that I can too.

J

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Holy Son of God

2013 04 14 ~ How could a Holy Son of God Create a world that is Unholy?

“You didn’t. All you did is think of how a world would be without a Holy God, knowing that such a world could not be holy. You haven’t created this world, for no such world could ever be possible because there is a Holy God which is eternally unchangeable, who created His Own Holy and Perfect World of which you are a part. The thought that you had was no more than just a thought, it was not an imperfect creation within a perfect world, for that cannot be. Perfection creates only perfection. As you had the thought of how a world would be without a Perfect and Holy God, you knew that such a world could only be chaotic and unbalanced, so, within your thinking, that is how you have imagined this imperfect and unbalanced world of fantasy. This does not make you a sinner as you haven’t sinned. This does not make you separate from God because you never went anywhere. This doesn’t mean that you are lost because God knows that you are only thinking and doesn’t recognize nor participate in your imaginary world any more than you recognize or participate in another person’s dream. You are His Child created in His Image and that will never change. You are unchangeable. It is impossible to go anywhere else, simply because there is nowhere else to go. God is all there is. There is no earth, no planets, no animals or humans… God is and that is all that there is. You may think of other places and things, knowing that they would have to be imperfect “IF” God’s Kingdom did not exist, but that could never make these things be true. A world of birth and death could never exist within God as He was never born nor will He ever die, and anything that God creates, such as yourself, could only be created in the perfection that He IS. His children could never be lost because He could never be lost. Perfection could never create imperfection. Only in your thought of how a world would be without a Perfect God could an imperfect world ever be imagined, because only in your thinking could such a place ever be imagined. As you thought of how this imperfect world would be, you imagined how it would be if you lived in such a world, knowing, that your life in such an impossible world, could only be chaotic and imperfect, filled with death and inequality, with all being unequal and individual. As our true existence within Our Father’s Kingdom, all is equal and all is One, with no division, whole and complete. God IS and This Is All That Is. No amount of imagination could ever change that fact. You can do no more harm than to think how another world could be. You cannot create anything any different because nothing any different from God can be created. So if you still are thinking that God created an imperfect world with imperfect creatures that could choose to disobey; that is all that you are doing, just thinking. Your thoughts of hell do not make hell a real place. Your thoughts of a world of murder could never make you a murderer. You may think that you are living in this imaginary imperfect world, where God created a man and a woman who made the choice to eat from a tree that was forbidden, but that doesn’t make that story true. You can think what you want, believe God to be a god of judgment and punishment, a god that demands perfect obedience to imperfect if you care to, but your thinking can never change the fact that your God is all and all Perfect Love and Peace, and a God of Perfect Love and Peace could never see His Children in any other form than what they truly are, His Perfect Creation as His own Love and Peace could only create. The only hell that has ever existed has been in your mind, knowing that a world without God’s Perfection could only be hell. And that is a true thought. Think. Where are you right now? You are safe within your Father’s Kingdom where you have always been and always will be. It would be impossible for you to leave. Any reference to you leaving and returning, being lost and needing salvation are only metaphoric terms used for teaching purposes. If you think that you are lost, then you will think that you need a savior to lead you home. Symbolism in this format is only useful if you have been afraid or cannot believe the real truth. If you think of me as your savior who has the ability to help you, then that will be our first step in understanding, as I can open the door to your mind and lead your thoughts back home. You have not and could not ever leave your home, you have only wondered off in your own thoughts, thinking them to be true. Nothing has changed for you, God is not mad at you. He has not kicked you out of His Holy Garden. You have done no wrong, you only think that you have and your own guilt imagines more and more punishments for you. You do not live within this chaotic world that you have imagined. Many, many books have been written, stating that a Perfect God created a world that became imperfect, but just because it was written in a book, that doesn’t make it true. Sermons are preached daily about this sinful world, but just because someone preaches it, doesn’t make it true. How could every sermon be true within a chaotic world filled with different religions? These are all just thoughts based on guilt, thinking that you have sinned against God and are damned for punishment without repentance. The only repentance that is needed, (repentance meaning complete change), is a complete change of thought. You have had the thought of how a world could be without a Perfect God. You knew this world would have to be a hell without Your God which was a correct thought. You have explored this thought system to its completion, knowing that such a world could only be a world of hate and murder. You have imagined every scenario trying to think of a way in which a non-peaceful world could find peace, knowing that this could never be possible. You know now that a world without God could never ‘find’ God or become like God if He did not exist. It is time to bring your thinking home. You have explored every aspect of that scenario and found it crazy and impossible. Anyone living in such a world could only experience pain and sadness. However, no such world exists, nor could it ever possibly exist. Perfection cannot create imperfection so what a waste of time to think about such a thing. We have learned a great lesson from these thoughts that assure us of God’s Truth. God Is and Nothing Else Is. It doesn’t matter if you don’t believe this or you happen to have another thought, that doesn’t change God just because you think that He is something that He isn’t and it doesn’t change you from being His Son and Perfect Creation just because you imagine yourself to be living in a world without God. You don’t and that Is God’s Truth. You are His Image. You are within Him. He doesn’t change and neither can you. You cannot fall from grace any more than He can. Your God is eternal, perfect and complete, and there is no thought that could ever change that. And you being within Him are also eternal, perfect and complete, lacking nothing. It doesn’t matter if you think of yourself as a prodigal son, and think that you have to return as a slave to be fed. Your Father Knows You Are His Son, not his slave, not his servant, His Son. You have always and only been His Son, nothing more, nothing less. And you will always be His Son, His Perfect Son, whole and complete in Him. This will never change. It cannot change. What is within God is God and that is all That There Is.”

What a waste of time, this thinking. I don’t want to think any more :0). Imperfection can never become perfect any more than perfection can become imperfection. I am not a lost person that needs to be found. I am at home with My Father and I will forever be in His Presence. I think that I will think on these thoughts for a while, until all other useless ‘thinkings’ disappear from my thoughts. This would be the Mind of Christ, Yeshua, am I correct here?

“You are correct. You are the Mind of Christ”

Are? As in part of?

“As in being, just be.”

And stop imagining other scenarios right?

“There are no other.”

Experiencing the Game

I actually wanted to experience how it would feel to be a ‘human/physical being’ that was having pain and how a human would re-act to the fear of death. I wanted to experience the trauma of sickness and loss and depression. I wanted to know how it would be to be upset and uneasy and insecure.

I wanted to experience all of the things that I am not… but why?

Am I just THAT curious? Is it because I knew that it wasn’t real and that I could stop the charade at any moment?

Yeshua, can we talk? And what type of experience are you having? Even though you no longer have the desire to experience ‘human/physical reality’ as you have been there, done that, you are ‘experiencing’ some other type of interest, correct?

Would I be correct in saying that this is who we are as creators, moving ‘mentally’ from one experience to the next just to see what it would be like if we were in those situations? Is that what it means to create?

Yes, I feel you smiling.

So that is why you can say that everything is neutral, that we give everything its meaning. And within a world based on belief systems, you pick a belief and put a situation in the category that you decide is right or wrong, from a human perspective that is.

You know I’m not a game player but I can see how this would appeal to those that are, just going from one game to another, conquering all the levels of one game then on to the next game that is much more challenging. Even my statement that I am not a game player sounds funny to me as I say it, as I am realizing that my not liking games is no more than my choice for the situation that I have chosen for this ‘experience’.

The ‘Real Me’ is quite obviously a big game player, I just wanted to experience how it would feel not to want to play the game while living within the game. (Matrix) So it’s not that I’m out to prove that this is not real. I am out to prove that anything CAN be real for me if that is my choice? Yikes.

Is it possible that I could actually be bored with the knowing that I have full control of who I am so I have chosen to forget who I really am in order to experience a challenge? This would make the crazy mad idea (A Course in Miracles) not so crazy and mad; it would make the idea an intentional choice. Am I correct? I knew that already didn’t I? Yes, but now it is alive.

Always before I could not get past the whys of it all.

WOW.

I know I always say this but… this is the most important information that I have ever received. Ha! Ha! I will say this though, I think this is the most important revelation that I have received to date and I think that you would agree with that. (Smiley Face)

Thanks! For you kindness and your patience. I long to ‘experience’ the real you outside the game.

Heck, I long to experience the REAL ME outside of the game! Now that will be an experience!

LOL!

j

It is the Experience that is Reality not the Physical Projection of the Experience

I am perfection. Through my curiosity I have made the decision to experience what it would be like if I were a human being on a planet called earth. I am projecting my thoughts of this experience and therefore creating this human reality that I am experiencing.

This does not change the fact that I am perfection. I am complete and whole as a perfect creation within My Father and All That Is.

This present experience is only that, an experience, for which I have had many, and this experience does not in any way change my state of perfection. It is the experience that is the reality and not the physical projection of the experience.

As I think of the fact that I have desired to experience this type of situation for myself, it is almost embarrassing. I think, why would I want to pretend to be a human? They are a hybrid animal/alien species; at the top of the animal chain, I admit, but still, however an animal, none the less. Humanity is no more than big foot with less hair and a larger brain; still animal in every aspect, still fighting, still desiring to control or conquer others and still physically reproducing their young. Why would I even be curious about how they live?

LOL!

Then I realized that I had ‘put myself into this reality’ to the point that I think that I am one of them. I have also taken on their way of thinking. Only a human would be embarrassed about wanting to know what it is like to be a human. I am thinking with the belief system of a human. How funny is that? Ha! Ha! Ha!

Classic!

j

Experience

2015 03 27 ~ Is it possible that I have only chosen each experience just as an experience? Is it possible that I just wanted to feel what it would be like to be afraid? Is it possible that all that I agreed to was to ‘see’ what would happen if I were afraid? Is it just possible that all that I wanted to do was observe?

If that is all true then why do I feel that I have to bring each situation to a close? Why do I feel that I have to ‘solve’ each situation? Why am I anticipating an end?

Do I not have freedom of choice? Can I not just move away after observing? Do I have to ‘handle’ each situation as if it were real or is it possible that I can smile and be satisfied that I have experienced?

j

Purity of the Experience

2015 01 10 ~ I am beginning to see why I would choose not to remember:

As a member of Mass Consciousness in which made the decision to create this particular dimension or universe I can see how it would be an uneventful experience to ‘inter into’ this dimension as a participant or human and get the full experience of what had been created with the complete understanding of the creation itself.

I see it as if I were the creator of a card game, sitting down to play the game with three other people that had no idea what the rules or strategies of the game were; or if I had created a maze for others to figure out but then I decided to go through the maze with the others and I knew every trick, every illusion, every turn and distraction because I was the one who had created the maze to begin with.

As much as I have hated the phrase ‘purity of the experience’ I do think that I am beginning to relax just a little bit with the thought that I have chosen to participate or experience the wonders of this dimension in which I have placed myself without full knowledge of its creation.

I think the reason that I have hated this life experience so is that it has frightened me because I felt that I had no control, that the universe could throw anything that it wished on me and I had no recourse.

But that is the very challenge of this creation isn’t it. That is my value fulfillment to understand that I am the creator and the only energy that this universe has is what I give it. I am the creator and I am the un-creator, I’m just not aware of it and that realization is the object of the game. Once I begin to create and un-create at will I have mastered this experience from the inside out or from the ‘purity of the experience’ so to speak.

So once I understand the rules I can play the game and play the game to win!

j