We Are. I Am.

I keep trying to identify with the God that is in me; trying to get past the belief system of separation.

I have been looking and communicating with the, so called, God within me, when I am God within God.

I have been trying to remove a belief system of separation which was never there, as I believed myself to be a creation or extension of My Father, in His Image, so to speak; when Who I Am is no less than His Thought, His Image, Himself, within Himself.

There is, nor was there ever, any separation.

We are. I Am.



I AM Thankful!

A few days back I received intuition about foods and their relation to the physical body. And as this information traveled through my belief systems of physical reality, ‘my perception’ of what I received was that certain foods do hold certain energies that can and do affect my physical body.

At first this excited me as I began to think that I could just avoid those foods with lower vibrations as I identified them. This seemed like a ‘logical’ interpretation of what I was receiving as I had heard of others who have become vegetarians in order to become more in-tuned spiritually; and so my immediate interpretation was that I was receiving something that they had already known.

Now this is not to say that certain foods do not hold certain types of energies and various vibrations; in this physical reality, they do.

For me it would have become another belief system that I would have fallen back into; another prison, another maze …

Ultimately I AM Spirit. What affects my physical body is what I believe affects my physical body. My physical world mirrors Who I AM not the other way around.

Ultimately I AM the one that determines the vibrational content of my existence.

For this further revelation I AM Thankful!


Jesus’ Teachings were for Now

Jesus’ Teachings are for Now. He knew that they wouldn’t understand then; but he left his legacy for us today.

NOW we can understand that his mission was to DEMONSTRATE HIS LACK OF ATTACHMENT TO THE PHYSICAL!

We are NOW taking on his rebellious nature in order to bypass the prison cell of religion. Yes I said rebellious. Remember the turning over of the tables in the temple?

They were not allowed to practice his teachings. They were forbidden to follow his leadership.

He was here to demonstrate that he was no longer attached to the physical reality in any way. He could manifest a new body. He could travel through time and space. He could appear to walk on top of water as if by magic. He appeared to be divine, living his life in a way that seemed to be above and beyond what other humans were capable of doing.

He came here to show us how. He was living in the fullness of those ‘human capabilities’ and leaving his teachings for our instructions NOW.

He knew who he was. He knew that he was created in the Image of his Father. He lived his life listening to his inner guidance, receiving those truths and acting upon them. He could not afford to care about the judgment of others. His legacy had to be told.

We were told that his mission was to save us by his sacrifice. We were told that he suffered and died for us. Religion has never allowed us to see his truth.

I have heard it preached that if I had been the only one that was ‘lost’ that Jesus would have come for me. I believe that to be a true statement. I am that important to my Big Brother that he would come, just for me, to leave me his legacy, so that NOW I can understand, I can find my ‘salvation’. I can find my own way as he found his.

And I will say that I was most definitely ‘lost’ and wondering aimlessly in the depths of a ‘belief system’ that kept me imprisoned in the thoughts of unworthiness. I am not bad. I am created in the Image of My Father. I am an extension of Source, of Reality, of Truth, of THAT WHICH IS. This silly little playhouse of humanity DOES NOT DEFINE ME!

So for the receiving of that knowledge about myself I can say that my Big Brother has ‘saved’ me!

Thank You Yeshua! We have waited a very, very long time for your return! Thank you for bringing life back to the light of your word!



You allowed us to believe that you were crucified as it gave us the sense of knowing and seeing you as the Son of God. This was the only thing that we were able to accept at this time. Not the truth but an illusion, a form of the truth which allows us to see you as being a bridge to Our Father. You even referred to God as your Father which allowed us to accept Him without fear. This was a giant step forward from the belief in sacrificing animals for our salvation, even though that had been a giant step of belief in their time.

It is time to move on again and the concept of a dream world has been introduced.

I want so to understand what is Truth but as You say, I am incapable of accepting what is true, I am still only capable of seeing You in symbolic stories and illusive dreams, and forced to believe in these symbols, one step at a time, as I lay one down and move forward to the next. What I feel that I am experiencing is not a dream but it has been all that I am able to accept, and although I have only been aware of the belief in the dream state for a short time, I find myself very unsatisfied and long to move on to a deeper understanding.

It seems that believing in symbols would be harmful but God is Who and What He is and what I believe Him to be is not going to change Him in any way regardless. However I see Him, symbolically, is my truth for this moment and cannot change what God is or who we are in any way. We accept as much as we allow ourselves to accept and then we wait until we are ready to move forward again.

Dreaming? No I am not asleep. I do need to wake up from something, but what it is I do not know yet. This should be ok with me but it’s not. This state of being has no security, I have a need to KNOW Who and What God is and Who I am. This driving force keeps me in a state of unrest. I know everyone keeps talking about following the peace but for some reason that has never worked for me. I am always pushing…pushing…searching for more…never satisfied, and I feel as if I never will be satisfied until I fully understand, or at least understand more than I understand now. Always needing to know more.

But yet I feel that this is good. I have come from believing in a Hebrew God of vengeance, to believing that God’s Only Begotten Son was crucified for my sin, to believing that I have not sinned, I have just mistakenly chosen this dreamlike state in which I need to be awakened in order to remember my original beginnings. All of these beliefs, symbolical though they may be, are relatively safe as each leads me further toward accepting Truth. Basically because I never quite buy them as being completely true which keeps me constantly seeking.

So as I see pictures of Jesus on the cross, I understand the need to believe and find security in that belief, I’ve been there. I remember how desperate I was to have a savior that I could believe could rescue me from the state that I was in and of course from the ever present belief in the hell fire and damnation that I had heard so many preachers screaming about. For that belief in Jesus as my savior, I am thankful.

Then to understand that the belief in sin was man’s idea not God’s took me even a step further, which I desperately needed to finally relieve myself of guilt. For this belief I am thankful. But now it’s time to move forward again, knowing that the next step is not my final destination, not even close, but that’s ok, I’ll get there, I don’t know when, but I’ll get there. The Kingdom of God is not going anywhere.

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It is the Experience that is Reality not the Physical Projection of the Experience

I am perfection. Through my curiosity I have made the decision to experience what it would be like if I were a human being on a planet called earth. I am projecting my thoughts of this experience and therefore creating this human reality that I am experiencing.

This does not change the fact that I am perfection. I am complete and whole as a perfect creation within My Father and All That Is.

This present experience is only that, an experience, for which I have had many, and this experience does not in any way change my state of perfection. It is the experience that is the reality and not the physical projection of the experience.

As I think of the fact that I have desired to experience this type of situation for myself, it is almost embarrassing. I think, why would I want to pretend to be a human? They are a hybrid animal/alien species; at the top of the animal chain, I admit, but still, however an animal, none the less. Humanity is no more than big foot with less hair and a larger brain; still animal in every aspect, still fighting, still desiring to control or conquer others and still physically reproducing their young. Why would I even be curious about how they live?


Then I realized that I had ‘put myself into this reality’ to the point that I think that I am one of them. I have also taken on their way of thinking. Only a human would be embarrassed about wanting to know what it is like to be a human. I am thinking with the belief system of a human. How funny is that? Ha! Ha! Ha!