Dream It – Visit It – Settle It – Create It

I’ve been there. In dreaming I am attempting to settle any anxiety that I have about a future/past event. In visiting this event I am giving myself the chance to create any outcome that I want to occur.

My god, what an ability! What a blessing. Now that I understand this I can use it deliberately. Dreams have no reason to frighten or confuse me any longer.

Couldn’t this also be said about imagination?

Isn’t this also what we do when we ‘overthink’ a situation? What we are doing is using creative abilities to imagine a future/past event. However without ‘knowing’ of our creative power of thought and emotion we could overthink, using anxieties and fears and dreads without the understanding of how powerful we are as creative beings. We create an open vision and use our imagination to scare ourselves silly before an event ever takes place.

By understanding that I can ‘go there’ and create whatever situation that pleases me, there can be no fear or dread. I have the power of creation! This future/past event is MY EVENT! I am the planner. I am the host. I am whatever, whoever, I need or want to be. This is my event for the making.

I do not have to ‘hope’ that things will go in my favor. I have to make things go in my favor. This is my event. No one else is planning this event for me. I am planning this event for myself in whatever way that I choose. And if I choose to plan this event in anxiety and fear then that is exactly what I will get; not only while I am overthinking it but also when I actually get there to experience it. Actually overthinking it IS being there and I have already tortured myself.

WOW.

I have the creative ability to use my excitement in a positive way, in a manner that ‘feels good’ to me. I have the creative ability to choose joy over anxiety or fear or dread.

I choose love. I choose peace. I choose happiness. I choose FUN!

2017 03 11 Western Art Museum - Man Painting

It’s my painting. I can paint what I want to see.

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The Mega Dream

The Mega DreamI woke up hearing a voice saying, “I did not pursue the Mega Dream.”

It was as if I was overhearing a conversation that two other people were having. Perhaps it was a counterpart of mine? At any rate, if I didn’t pursue the Mega Dream, I am pursuing it now. Which makes me ask the question, what is the Mega Dream?

My thought was of Daniel in the lions’ den and not being eaten by the lions; and the 3 Hebrew children that were thrown in the fire and were not burned. (Which makes me wonder, once again, if these stories were reality? Were these men actually enlightened figures on this planet or were the stories just an attempt to describe enlightenment within a story that people of that time period, and this one, could understand?)

I do not think that the Mega Dream would be a physical ‘heaven’ on Earth but that regardless, or in spite of Earth, I reside in a heavenly state of being.

My thoughts are free and open to intuition. My feelings are pure and peaceful. I am assured of who I am and that dreams cannot hurt me. I feel joy.

My heart is free to pursue happiness, wholeness; to be complete and unaffected by the dream, any dream.

That’s my idea of the Mega Dream.

 

As I was typing this my curiosity said that I should look up mega. I looked up the definition of the word mega and it said: Surpassing other examples of its kind; extraordinary, very good; successful.

This made me think, just for a second, that maybe I had misinterpreted the voice of the message. (Second guessing, again; what a waste of ‘time’. He He. How many times have I fallen for ‘that second thought’? Way too many!)

BUT I can’t deny the FEELING that I had as I heard the voice, that I could have been pursuing that ultimate feeling, that ultimate place or state of being where nothing physical matters.

I was right the first time.

j

Focus

j: Yeshua, why am I so angry?

Yeshua: You are summoning the anger to you by focusing on it.

j: Yes, I know that, thank you. I want this to become automatic. When will that happen?

Yeshua: When you stop focusing on what you don’t want.

j: Ha Ha got it. I Love You!

Yeshua: I Love You too.

How Are You FEELING?

Dreaming About Bigfoot…Really?…Geez…

1st Dream 2017 11 08:
There was a refrigerator and cabinets filled with food in the basement of our home and in this dream this Bigfoot type creature was getting into our basement and eating our food at night when we slept. All that I could think of was that I had to leave that house. I was frightened beyond what I could stand. I just wanted to run.
In the dream, my mother, Sara, was there. I’m not sure if she lived there with us or not but we were talking in the kitchen and we could hear Bigfoot in the basement as we talked. I told her that I just had to get out of there hoping that she would have some other suggestion but she only kept telling me that I didn’t need to leave.
I told my husband, Ross, that I couldn’t stand it and that I had to get out of there and the next thing that I knew he was down in the basement. I could hear conversation and then I heard Bigfoot screaming at Ross that he wasn’t leaving and to leave him alone.
Bigfoot screamed, “I can take your wife!”
Sara and I were still sitting in the kitchen but I could hear what the creature was screaming.
My fear heightened to the panic point.
And the dream ended.

My Thoughts:
I guess the obvious would be that no one can help me overcome my greatest fear.
This caused me to question, what is my greatest fear?
It would have to be the belief that this physical reality is real and that I am trapped here, forced to live out this human existence, until ‘God’ calls me back into some type of eternity that I have no control over. Now this is an old belief system that seems to linger on in the shadows of my memory that I have been unable to shake. It doesn’t seem to matter how much knowledge I pack into my mind the dark shadow lingers on.
I know better than this of course. I know that I am an extension of THAT WHICH IS. I know that I create my own reality. I know that I have chosen not to remember who I am for this experience on Earth. But knowing that this is true, so far, hasn’t taken me to the next ‘level’ enough to be able to shake the fear of an old memory. I still, somewhere in the dark crevices of my memory, think that Bigfoot is in the basement.
What I do know is that I want to end this fear and live as I should be living, enjoying, with all understanding, what this adventure is all about.

Prayer:
j: “Yeshua, I know that my answer is calling for me to question so I am asking for your assistance. You’ve been here. Please share with me what you know. I want to live as you live.”

2nd Dream 2017 11 25:
As the dream opens Sara and I have purchased different types of foods that are supposed to keep you healthy. One of the foods was in pie form and tasted sweet and Ross had eaten the whole pie except for one slice.  My thought was at least it’s healthy food so it’s a good thing that he likes it. I was pleased.
We had also gotten 4 white cats as we had heard that pets give you pleasure and would also help to keep you healthy. One of the cats was an adult and the other 3 were kittens; I’m not sure if the adult was the mother or not. As we were watching the cats play we were commenting on how smart they were. The cats did bring us pleasure.
We were aware that there was a creature that wanted to get into our home and we had boarded the windows and doors to keep it out but to no avail. We heard a noise outside and when we looked out there was this creature that looked similar to a Bigfoot but it was totally white. I guess that would make it an Abominable Snowman since it was all white.  And it was wearing baby blue colored clothing. I noticed specifically baby blue colored short pants. He had on some type of baby blue shirt made out of very thin material. It wasn’t buttoned. It was flapping in the breeze as he walked and was just barely hanging on his shoulders.
The creature was heading for the back door and we knew that there was no way that we could keep it out. I am terrified.
The dream ends as we are quietly sneaking out the front door.

Again, My Thoughts:
This is the 2nd time in about 2 weeks that I have had similar dreams about a Bigfoot type creature. I’m only calling it that because I have nothing else to compare it to other than a type of alien; but this creature is highly intelligent, speaks, and wears clothing!
In both of the dreams I am terrified of this creature and I am trying to live a normal life in my home with this horrible fear that this creature could come at any time.
In the 2nd dream, it seems that we must have moved, for the house in the 2nd dream is totally different from the house in the first dream which had a basement. The house in the 2nd dream is basically a doublewide or modular type home.
The creature enters the back door which is our bedroom. When he comes in we are in the front room which is the kitchen and we have an easy escape.
In the 2nd dream it seems that we are attempting to get healthier and to enjoy our life more but that still doesn’t stop the creature from coming and entering the house. It is like he has stalked us and found us at the new house.
I keep trying to understand what it is that the creature wants from us, or me. In the 1st dream he was coming in the basement and eating the food that we had stored there. He told Ross that he wanted to be left alone. He screamed, “I can take your wife.” (What does that mean?!?) And of course, Ross cannot defeat this creature.
Sara, on the other hand, was telling me that we needed to stay in the house. I obviously convinced her otherwise as we were in another house in the 2nd dream, not that it did us any good as he followed us there. So Sara knew something that I couldn’t understand because the fear was so overwhelming. All I could think was to escape.
So, Ross tries to talk to the thing and Sara thinks we should stay in the house with it. I’m thinking, “Are they nuts. Why are they not scared? They just aren’t getting this.”
But obviously I’m the one that’s not getting it…
It’s interesting to me that they are both trying to help me even though I’m not so happy with their methods. And why am I staying with them? That’s also curious to me. It’s like I want them to find my answer for me but I know that they can’t.  It still doesn’t stop me from hoping that one of them can protect me from this creature.
My normal human reaction would be to run away and leave these two with it. As frightened as I am I would have to escape. But in this dream I am staying with these two hoping that they will find a solution. Ha Ha!  And they are still trying to help me. We are now eating health foods to stay ‘healthier’. And we have 4 cats for our ‘enjoyment’.
In the 2nd dream he’s coming in the back door and we are leaving so we have no conversation with him. Is he coming in for food again? Strangely, it seems to be ‘feeding’ off of my fear.

Prayer:
j: “Yeshua, I have to stop running. As I speak to you all fear is released and is completely gone. The creature seems harmless. My thoughts are, ‘so what if he comes in the house; he can’t hurt me’. As long as I am focusing on … I still see you as my total protection. That’s not a bad thing but don’t I need to identify ‘The Christ’ within me; and with that TO KNOW that I need no protection. Is it time that I stop looking to you for my salvation and KNOW that I need no salvation. As you said, “I and the Father are One.” So I can say, “I and the Father are One,” As well.
Is it possible that you are ‘my creature’? Is that why the all-white and the baby blue clothing? Oh my goodness, I have perceived you as… How do I see you? That’s how I see you most of the time with that white robe and that baby blue wrap around your shoulders. What am I seeing? Purity, purer than I could ever become.”

Yeshua: “You still me as dualistic. You see me as savior but also judge and punisher. I am neither. I am your brother. I am Christ. You are Christ. We are ONE in The Father. We are ALL THAT IS, together as ONE.
There is no fear here. There is no judgment. There is only acceptance and a type of ‘love’ that is beyond ANY condition or circumstance.
If I am ONE with the Father and You are ONE with the Father then how could I ever judge you in any form?
There is no fear; only what you imagine that there is. See me as I am and you will see yourself as I am. ONE of ALL THAT IS”

j: “I feel you smiling. I feel your ‘love’ and acceptance. Thank you once again, and again, and again…
Why do I still keep falling back into those old beliefs? How odd, it seems that I am familiar and comfortable with fear. It gives me a certain adrenaline feeling of fight or flight. And I see this creature as being undefeatable so I choose flight in this instance. And this feeling is actually comfortable. Wow.
I am not comfortable with the thought of freedom; actually it scares me. I don’t know how to live free. If I don’t have a decision of fight or flight to make what do I do. How do I see the creature through the eyes of Freedom? As my teacher, as my friend? And then what do I do?”

Yeshua: “You can always enjoy watching the kittens play.”

j: I know that you are baiting me but I’m not sure…”

Yeshua: “Imagine the feeling that you have as you watch the kittens play. Go there. Pick one up. Feel his fur. Hear him purr. What are you feeling?”

j: “It’s the feeling. Again, I know that. I just keep forgetting, falling back into fear of loss.
I just need to keep applying it. Make the choice to feel wonderful, enjoy the feeling…
Why am I so uncomfortable with feeling wonderful? Why can’t I enjoy anything? I always have this ‘feeling’ that something will come in the back door and steal from me, take from me what is giving me happiness.”

Yeshua: “Look at the creature now. What does he look like?”

j: “You. He looks like all the religious pictures of you with the white robe and the baby blue cloth around your shoulders.”

Yeshua: “How could you see me differently that would make you more comfortable?”

j: “Actually, I’m comfortable seeing you as ‘pure’, wearing white and baby blue. Maybe if I could see myself as ‘pure’ and wearing white and baby blue? That thought feels nice but then what? What do you do if you are ‘pure’ and wearing white and baby blue.”
You’re laughing. I love it.
But my question is serious; what do you do?”

Yeshua: “Whatever I FEEL like doing. I FEEL ONENESS with My Father. I FEEL My Father’s love and acceptance. I want to always FEEL that. As ONE with My Father I have no need to have a thought of my own. I  join His Thoughts. His Thoughts are mine (pause) and yours. That is where I reside. That is my desire. That is the FEELING that I ‘call’ to me.
As for what do I do? I do nothing. I FEEL as My Father FEELS. That is what is important. That is ALL THAT THERE IS.
It isn’t about doing. It is BEING. As I AM. That’s all. I just AM.”

j: “Were you ever where I am? How did you get to where you are, just BEING?”

Yeshua: “Desire. What I desire comes to me. I desire ONENESS and that is what I have. The unity of ALL. I see nothing else. I FEEL my way. My ‘paths’ are FEELINGS of joy. Joy comes. Joy IS.”

Experiencing the Game

I actually wanted to experience how it would feel to be a ‘human/physical being’ that was having pain and how a human would re-act to the fear of death. I wanted to experience the trauma of sickness and loss and depression. I wanted to know how it would be to be upset and uneasy and insecure.

I wanted to experience all of the things that I am not… but why?

Am I just THAT curious? Is it because I knew that it wasn’t real and that I could stop the charade at any moment?

Yeshua, can we talk? And what type of experience are you having? Even though you no longer have the desire to experience ‘human/physical reality’ as you have been there, done that, you are ‘experiencing’ some other type of interest, correct?

Would I be correct in saying that this is who we are as creators, moving ‘mentally’ from one experience to the next just to see what it would be like if we were in those situations? Is that what it means to create?

Yes, I feel you smiling.

So that is why you can say that everything is neutral, that we give everything its meaning. And within a world based on belief systems, you pick a belief and put a situation in the category that you decide is right or wrong, from a human perspective that is.

You know I’m not a game player but I can see how this would appeal to those that are, just going from one game to another, conquering all the levels of one game then on to the next game that is much more challenging. Even my statement that I am not a game player sounds funny to me as I say it, as I am realizing that my not liking games is no more than my choice for the situation that I have chosen for this ‘experience’.

The ‘Real Me’ is quite obviously a big game player, I just wanted to experience how it would feel not to want to play the game while living within the game. (Matrix) So it’s not that I’m out to prove that this is not real. I am out to prove that anything CAN be real for me if that is my choice? Yikes.

Is it possible that I could actually be bored with the knowing that I have full control of who I am so I have chosen to forget who I really am in order to experience a challenge? This would make the crazy mad idea (A Course in Miracles) not so crazy and mad; it would make the idea an intentional choice. Am I correct? I knew that already didn’t I? Yes, but now it is alive.

Always before I could not get past the whys of it all.

WOW.

I know I always say this but… this is the most important information that I have ever received. Ha! Ha! I will say this though, I think this is the most important revelation that I have received to date and I think that you would agree with that. (Smiley Face)

Thanks! For you kindness and your patience. I long to ‘experience’ the real you outside the game.

Heck, I long to experience the REAL ME outside of the game! Now that will be an experience!

LOL!

j

Experience

2015 03 27 ~ Is it possible that I have only chosen each experience just as an experience? Is it possible that I just wanted to feel what it would be like to be afraid? Is it possible that all that I agreed to was to ‘see’ what would happen if I were afraid? Is it just possible that all that I wanted to do was observe?

If that is all true then why do I feel that I have to bring each situation to a close? Why do I feel that I have to ‘solve’ each situation? Why am I anticipating an end?

Do I not have freedom of choice? Can I not just move away after observing? Do I have to ‘handle’ each situation as if it were real or is it possible that I can smile and be satisfied that I have experienced?

j

You Cannot Hurt Me ~ I Create My Own Reality

2015 01 23 ~ My previous understanding has been that you could only hurt me if I allowed you to hurt me and this has worked for me for some time. However I have never quite been able to master that concept.

Actually you have no power to hurt me at all. I retain that power. In actuality I am the one that hurts myself based on how I perceive each situation.

If I make the statement that you have hurt me or even to say that I have allowed you to hurt me, which would be a step toward further understanding, I am still seeing you as the source of my pain in some form, and that is incorrect.

My perception determines my feelings. I make that choice.

I alone retain the choice of whether I experience pain or joy based on any given situation. I am the creator of my own reality.

If I choose to feel pain over something that you have said to me, I have that right. If I want to go into a depressed state of mind based on what I have determined to be the opinions of others, that I am not cared for, I can make that choice. But my choice of pain and suffering is strictly my choice. You, nor anyone else, did not create my unhappiness, I did.

You cannot hurt me. You cannot depress me. You cannot take my power away from me, even if I could agree to such a thing.

I make my own choices.

If it were your intention to hurt me, it matters not. You have no control over my feelings.

I am the one who makes the choice to feel pain or to retain my own joy.

I am whole and complete. I am joy. I am who I am within ALL THAT IS. If I make a choice to EXPERIENCE a feeling outside of my own reality I have that right but that is all that it would be…just an experience.

j