“Physician, Heal Thyself”

I am not ‘whole’ enough to help her or anyone else. And that is okay.

I cannot and should not take on a responsibility that I am incapable of handling. And this is okay.

I should not feel any sense of guilt because I am not whole enough to handle the problems of others. It is okay.

I am responsible for my own health as I am incapable of giving what I do not possess myself. And that is okay.

“Physician, Heal Thyself”

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Jesus’ Teachings were for Now

Jesus’ Teachings are for Now. He knew that they wouldn’t understand then; but he left his legacy for us today.

NOW we can understand that his mission was to DEMONSTRATE HIS LACK OF ATTACHMENT TO THE PHYSICAL!

We are NOW taking on his rebellious nature in order to bypass the prison cell of religion. Yes I said rebellious. Remember the turning over of the tables in the temple?

They were not allowed to practice his teachings. They were forbidden to follow his leadership.

He was here to demonstrate that he was no longer attached to the physical reality in any way. He could manifest a new body. He could travel through time and space. He could appear to walk on top of water as if by magic. He appeared to be divine, living his life in a way that seemed to be above and beyond what other humans were capable of doing.

He came here to show us how. He was living in the fullness of those ‘human capabilities’ and leaving his teachings for our instructions NOW.

He knew who he was. He knew that he was created in the Image of his Father. He lived his life listening to his inner guidance, receiving those truths and acting upon them. He could not afford to care about the judgment of others. His legacy had to be told.

We were told that his mission was to save us by his sacrifice. We were told that he suffered and died for us. Religion has never allowed us to see his truth.

I have heard it preached that if I had been the only one that was ‘lost’ that Jesus would have come for me. I believe that to be a true statement. I am that important to my Big Brother that he would come, just for me, to leave me his legacy, so that NOW I can understand, I can find my ‘salvation’. I can find my own way as he found his.

And I will say that I was most definitely ‘lost’ and wondering aimlessly in the depths of a ‘belief system’ that kept me imprisoned in the thoughts of unworthiness. I am not bad. I am created in the Image of My Father. I am an extension of Source, of Reality, of Truth, of THAT WHICH IS. This silly little playhouse of humanity DOES NOT DEFINE ME!

So for the receiving of that knowledge about myself I can say that my Big Brother has ‘saved’ me!

Thank You Yeshua! We have waited a very, very long time for your return! Thank you for bringing life back to the light of your word!

j

Who I Am

During the night, once again, I was asking for help to recognize and experience Who I Am. Every vision that I could conger up was of a separation between what I have known to be my reality on earth and what I want to experience of My Father’s World. I wanted nothing more to do with 3rd density Earth existence. I wanted completely away from it. I wanted it wiped from my memory, GONE!
But I noticed that I kept going back to what I had enjoyed here and I thought for a long time about my life with my husband, the joys that I have had with my girls, Jekyll Island, even ‘worshiping’ God, even though that required a permission slip to see My Father as a separate being from myself, which in actuality I do have an individual essence of a sort, at least that is my understanding. At any rate I So Enjoyed Worship and Praise and the feeling of unity with My Father.
I thought about the talks that I have had with my mother. I thought back when my son was a little boy and how pleasant and funny that he was. I thought of my horses and how they represented freedom to me, of how I love swimming and how I miss doing that now, dancing, singing, working in my garden, riding my bike, drawing, painting my house and constantly redecorating… on and on I remembered the joys. Then my mind kept going back to the fence that I wanted to put across the back of our property and the roof that I wanted for the back patio. And if I had some money that I should see about having my teeth fixed and then I got mad at myself for thinking about ‘accepting’ something artificial in my mouth besides real teeth…yuck. I should be able to create REAL teeth.
Slowly…because I can be a little thick sometimes…I began to recognize that I was receiving the revelation that I had been BEGGING for. I WAS experiencing Who I Am. I Am a creator and it’s okay if I create what makes me happy and it’s okay if I create in 3rd density or 4th or 5th or 6th density. It’s okay if I create on Earth or Mars or Pandora or Heaven. I Am A Creator and I have been trying to imagine myself enmeshed somehow within My Father, with no imagination of my own.
I wanted the veil removed BUT THEN WHAT? I didn’t know. All I knew was that I didn’t want the pain of this Earth hurting me anymore and I knew that My Father was my answer to my health and peace and joy. The revelation that I found myself receiving was that I Am and Can Be healed and happy and full of joy in my own individual creations. I don’t have to give that part of myself away to experience My Father’s Peace and Love.
What I found out was that I don’t have to SEPARATE myself from anything or to anything. I just need to be Who I Am wherever I care to be. I am a creator and it is within my power to BE happy and free and peaceful.
I can be a swimmer. I can be an artist. I can love my husband. I can enjoy my kids. I can collect angel statues and paint ceramic cats and ducks if that is my choice. I can plant 50 daffodils and enjoy their beauty when they bloom. I can plan to put a fence in my backyard and a roof over my patio if that is what I choose. And I can create real teeth.  What would Jesus do? Ha Ha, whatever he wants to do, that’s what he would do. Whatever the heck he feels like doing is what he does! So I guess that means that I can too.

J

Holy Son of God

2013 04 14 ~ How could a Holy Son of God Create a world that is Unholy?

“You didn’t. All you did is think of how a world would be without a Holy God, knowing that such a world could not be holy. You haven’t created this world, for no such world could ever be possible because there is a Holy God which is eternally unchangeable, who created His Own Holy and Perfect World of which you are a part. The thought that you had was no more than just a thought, it was not an imperfect creation within a perfect world, for that cannot be. Perfection creates only perfection. As you had the thought of how a world would be without a Perfect and Holy God, you knew that such a world could only be chaotic and unbalanced, so, within your thinking, that is how you have imagined this imperfect and unbalanced world of fantasy. This does not make you a sinner as you haven’t sinned. This does not make you separate from God because you never went anywhere. This doesn’t mean that you are lost because God knows that you are only thinking and doesn’t recognize nor participate in your imaginary world any more than you recognize or participate in another person’s dream. You are His Child created in His Image and that will never change. You are unchangeable. It is impossible to go anywhere else, simply because there is nowhere else to go. God is all there is. There is no earth, no planets, no animals or humans… God is and that is all that there is. You may think of other places and things, knowing that they would have to be imperfect “IF” God’s Kingdom did not exist, but that could never make these things be true. A world of birth and death could never exist within God as He was never born nor will He ever die, and anything that God creates, such as yourself, could only be created in the perfection that He IS. His children could never be lost because He could never be lost. Perfection could never create imperfection. Only in your thought of how a world would be without a Perfect God could an imperfect world ever be imagined, because only in your thinking could such a place ever be imagined. As you thought of how this imperfect world would be, you imagined how it would be if you lived in such a world, knowing, that your life in such an impossible world, could only be chaotic and imperfect, filled with death and inequality, with all being unequal and individual. As our true existence within Our Father’s Kingdom, all is equal and all is One, with no division, whole and complete. God IS and This Is All That Is. No amount of imagination could ever change that fact. You can do no more harm than to think how another world could be. You cannot create anything any different because nothing any different from God can be created. So if you still are thinking that God created an imperfect world with imperfect creatures that could choose to disobey; that is all that you are doing, just thinking. Your thoughts of hell do not make hell a real place. Your thoughts of a world of murder could never make you a murderer. You may think that you are living in this imaginary imperfect world, where God created a man and a woman who made the choice to eat from a tree that was forbidden, but that doesn’t make that story true. You can think what you want, believe God to be a god of judgment and punishment, a god that demands perfect obedience to imperfect if you care to, but your thinking can never change the fact that your God is all and all Perfect Love and Peace, and a God of Perfect Love and Peace could never see His Children in any other form than what they truly are, His Perfect Creation as His own Love and Peace could only create. The only hell that has ever existed has been in your mind, knowing that a world without God’s Perfection could only be hell. And that is a true thought. Think. Where are you right now? You are safe within your Father’s Kingdom where you have always been and always will be. It would be impossible for you to leave. Any reference to you leaving and returning, being lost and needing salvation are only metaphoric terms used for teaching purposes. If you think that you are lost, then you will think that you need a savior to lead you home. Symbolism in this format is only useful if you have been afraid or cannot believe the real truth. If you think of me as your savior who has the ability to help you, then that will be our first step in understanding, as I can open the door to your mind and lead your thoughts back home. You have not and could not ever leave your home, you have only wondered off in your own thoughts, thinking them to be true. Nothing has changed for you, God is not mad at you. He has not kicked you out of His Holy Garden. You have done no wrong, you only think that you have and your own guilt imagines more and more punishments for you. You do not live within this chaotic world that you have imagined. Many, many books have been written, stating that a Perfect God created a world that became imperfect, but just because it was written in a book, that doesn’t make it true. Sermons are preached daily about this sinful world, but just because someone preaches it, doesn’t make it true. How could every sermon be true within a chaotic world filled with different religions? These are all just thoughts based on guilt, thinking that you have sinned against God and are damned for punishment without repentance. The only repentance that is needed, (repentance meaning complete change), is a complete change of thought. You have had the thought of how a world could be without a Perfect God. You knew this world would have to be a hell without Your God which was a correct thought. You have explored this thought system to its completion, knowing that such a world could only be a world of hate and murder. You have imagined every scenario trying to think of a way in which a non-peaceful world could find peace, knowing that this could never be possible. You know now that a world without God could never ‘find’ God or become like God if He did not exist. It is time to bring your thinking home. You have explored every aspect of that scenario and found it crazy and impossible. Anyone living in such a world could only experience pain and sadness. However, no such world exists, nor could it ever possibly exist. Perfection cannot create imperfection so what a waste of time to think about such a thing. We have learned a great lesson from these thoughts that assure us of God’s Truth. God Is and Nothing Else Is. It doesn’t matter if you don’t believe this or you happen to have another thought, that doesn’t change God just because you think that He is something that He isn’t and it doesn’t change you from being His Son and Perfect Creation just because you imagine yourself to be living in a world without God. You don’t and that Is God’s Truth. You are His Image. You are within Him. He doesn’t change and neither can you. You cannot fall from grace any more than He can. Your God is eternal, perfect and complete, and there is no thought that could ever change that. And you being within Him are also eternal, perfect and complete, lacking nothing. It doesn’t matter if you think of yourself as a prodigal son, and think that you have to return as a slave to be fed. Your Father Knows You Are His Son, not his slave, not his servant, His Son. You have always and only been His Son, nothing more, nothing less. And you will always be His Son, His Perfect Son, whole and complete in Him. This will never change. It cannot change. What is within God is God and that is all That There Is.”

What a waste of time, this thinking. I don’t want to think any more :0). Imperfection can never become perfect any more than perfection can become imperfection. I am not a lost person that needs to be found. I am at home with My Father and I will forever be in His Presence. I think that I will think on these thoughts for a while, until all other useless ‘thinkings’ disappear from my thoughts. This would be the Mind of Christ, Yeshua, am I correct here?

“You are correct. You are the Mind of Christ”

Are? As in part of?

“As in being, just be.”

And stop imagining other scenarios right?

“There are no other.”

Perception and Prophecy

Along with many, many others, I have ‘seen’ many dreams and visions of battles and wars and enemies attacking. These enemies have been ‘seen’ in many forms from demonic spirits to physical representations of countries warring against each other. Religions have been established upon such dreams and visions.

We are in a transition period of making big choices within a major shift in consciousness in this dimension. Our perception has been, within dreams and visions, of extreme trauma and fear of coming disasters and of wanting to escape these disasters.

We have seen this ‘coming’ shift as something to fear because it has been unknown to us so we are ‘re-acting’ to what we perceive as being something we need to either fight or run from.

In our choice to run we have perceived our escape in different forms of being raptured away. And in our choice for battle we have ‘seen’ armies killing and destroying what we fear to be our enemies.

Many dreams and visions have been interpreted in these manners as we have been so afraid of change. But there is nothing to fear in God.

Our perceptions have been of a god that we have interpreted from a human standpoint of having feelings as we feel and seeing as we see and ‘re-acting accordingly. But God Acts. God does not re-act.

We perceive based on what we believe to be true and we re-act in that manner but we have miss-interpreted many dreams and visions as fearful and calling for battle when in truth our dreams are just our perceptions.

This shift in consciousness that we are experiencing is asking us to widen our awareness, to see more of what is and less of what we might believe to be true.

New Information Coming Through

If I had only known this 25 years ago ~

New information coming through first appears to me symbolically as unknown, or scary because my body consciousness is fighting back against something that it cannot identify. It’s only defense is to try and protect me from what it doesn’t recognize and ‘reacts’ with fight or flight which I interpret as something fearful or dangerous that could possibly hurt me.

I had a dream in April in which I was running down a path and as I am running a young male dear runs toward me from the right side and slams into my body. In the dream I was carrying the baby dear and holding its head in my hands as I ran because it wouldn’t be still. I felt that I had to hold it or it would hurt me again. I remember looking at it to make sure that it didn’t have horns and it didn’t but I was still holding its head.

I had another dream this September and in the dream I was walking on this dirt path through a woodsy area and I heard someone’s voice from behind the bushes making different animal noises. The last sound that I remember hearing was someone trying to meow like a cat.
As I was walking down the path I knew that I was dreaming and I was wondering what the fake animal sounds were supposed to represent.
As I typed the dream I realized that the woods were not real. It was like I was walking through the props of a movie set with plastic trees and shrubs.

I realize today how prophetic these dreams were but at the time I had no clue what they meant. Both of these dreams were to show me that my perception is based on what I believe to be true. And just because I believe it doesn’t make it true. A baby deer cannot hurt me. And in the same manner if I had stopped to identify the animal sounds, I would have seen that it was just a kitten meowing. My dream was trying to get my attention to show me that my perception was fake. There was nothing to fear. But I was afraid to look.

Of all the visions and dreams that I have experienced over the last 25 or so years… if I just could have understood this. Just this recognition is my salvation. And today is a New Day.

My ‘New Information’ for today is to begin to recognize something that I ‘see’ to be frightening as new information coming through. Upon this recognition, I am alerting my body consciousness that there is nothing to fear. This is only new information coming through that is to be accepted and welcomed.

Nothing real can be threatened. Nothing unreal exists. Herein lies the peace of God. ACIM-T-in.2

If it is Easy, it is Not Valued; If it is Easy, There is No Challenge

It seems that this would be the key to the creation of this entire universe to me. If we want to play games then it makes total sense that we would make them as complicated as possible just for the fun of it. What fun is a game without a challenge? We want the challenge of trying to figure out the strategy for ourselves. We want to be the winners because we figured it out so we create the most complicated game strategies and rules that are ‘mentally’ possible for us just for the thrill! Even if it frightens us we will still watch the scary movie to see how and why Norman Bates kills the girl in the shower. ‘Secretly’ we want to feel the fear! We want to see if we can figure out the most complicated cases.
We cannot be bored or we will not play.

Excerpt from Elias’ session 228:
Question: I believe it is possible to go from nearsightedness to perfect eyesight, but I don’t know the methodology or practical procedures of doing so, and I have never met anyone who has done that.
ELIAS: And it is not necessary to objectively know the methodology. What is important to know is precisely what we have been discussing: the importance of your not wanting the sight that you have created. When that becomes less important, you will generate much more success in altering your sight. As it continues to be very important, you continue to create it.
Question: So I have to keep looking for the motive, the reason why I supposedly don’t want good eyesight?
ELIAS: Or you can simplify and merely begin to lessen the importance of what you do not like.
Question: How do you do that? It’s not easy.
ELIAS: It is not easy, for you create it to be complicated. (Laughter) But in actuality, it is quite simple and it is quite easy. But you incorporate fascinations with complicating and generating much more energy than is necessary.
If it is easy, it is not valued; if it is easy, there is no challenge. But if it is complicated, you can unravel it, and that is an action that you are all quite fascinated with.
It may be likened to a present: if an individual hands you a gift and it is unwrapped, you may accept it and you may thank them; if an individual hands you a gift and it is wrapped in paper and in strings and you must unwrap it, you will generate more excitement, for you have presented yourself a surprise. You may receive the same gift, but the one that is wrapped will be more exciting, for it is more complicated. (Chuckles)    ©2015 Mary Ennis. All Rights Reserved.

Wow, what I have learned about myself today. I understand why I do not like games. I have made the decision to back away from challenges and confrontations as much as possible as this is my final focus and I am searching for a better way, an easier way…
I am searching for TRUTH! And everything else bores me. How’s that for the ultimate oxymoron of humanity! YES!
Thank You Father… and Elias…and Yeshua, My Brother… (It feels so good to know that asking for help is a good thing. I don’t have to have all the answers myself… even though I really do I just don’t remember. That’s why I need help. Ha! Ha!)
I guess it’s somewhat funny to me to remember that I went to bed asking for help and waking up this morning with the knowing that even as Our Father loves creation and creating and we have taken on those ‘experiences’ He never meant for me to ‘forget’ who I AM in the process! That was my decision… Thus ‘the tiny mad idea’.

Thankful

You allowed us to believe that you were crucified as it gave us the sense of knowing and seeing you as the Son of God. This was the only thing that we were able to accept at this time. Not the truth but an illusion, a form of the truth which allows us to see you as being a bridge to Our Father. You even referred to God as your Father which allowed us to accept Him without fear. This was a giant step forward from the belief in sacrificing animals for our salvation, even though that had been a giant step of belief in their time.

It is time to move on again and the concept of a dream world has been introduced.

I want so to understand what is Truth but as You say, I am incapable of accepting what is true, I am still only capable of seeing You in symbolic stories and illusive dreams, and forced to believe in these symbols, one step at a time, as I lay one down and move forward to the next. What I feel that I am experiencing is not a dream but it has been all that I am able to accept, and although I have only been aware of the belief in the dream state for a short time, I find myself very unsatisfied and long to move on to a deeper understanding.

It seems that believing in symbols would be harmful but God is Who and What He is and what I believe Him to be is not going to change Him in any way regardless. However I see Him, symbolically, is my truth for this moment and cannot change what God is or who we are in any way. We accept as much as we allow ourselves to accept and then we wait until we are ready to move forward again.

Dreaming? No I am not asleep. I do need to wake up from something, but what it is I do not know yet. This should be ok with me but it’s not. This state of being has no security, I have a need to KNOW Who and What God is and Who I am. This driving force keeps me in a state of unrest. I know everyone keeps talking about following the peace but for some reason that has never worked for me. I am always pushing…pushing…searching for more…never satisfied, and I feel as if I never will be satisfied until I fully understand, or at least understand more than I understand now. Always needing to know more.

But yet I feel that this is good. I have come from believing in a Hebrew God of vengeance, to believing that God’s Only Begotten Son was crucified for my sin, to believing that I have not sinned, I have just mistakenly chosen this dreamlike state in which I need to be awakened in order to remember my original beginnings. All of these beliefs, symbolical though they may be, are relatively safe as each leads me further toward accepting Truth. Basically because I never quite buy them as being completely true which keeps me constantly seeking.

So as I see pictures of Jesus on the cross, I understand the need to believe and find security in that belief, I’ve been there. I remember how desperate I was to have a savior that I could believe could rescue me from the state that I was in and of course from the ever present belief in the hell fire and damnation that I had heard so many preachers screaming about. For that belief in Jesus as my savior, I am thankful.

Then to understand that the belief in sin was man’s idea not God’s took me even a step further, which I desperately needed to finally relieve myself of guilt. For this belief I am thankful. But now it’s time to move forward again, knowing that the next step is not my final destination, not even close, but that’s ok, I’ll get there, I don’t know when, but I’ll get there. The Kingdom of God is not going anywhere.

j
2011 10 01

Experiencing the Game

I actually wanted to experience how it would feel to be a ‘human/physical being’ that was having pain and how a human would re-act to the fear of death. I wanted to experience the trauma of sickness and loss and depression. I wanted to know how it would be to be upset and uneasy and insecure.

I wanted to experience all of the things that I am not… but why?

Am I just THAT curious? Is it because I knew that it wasn’t real and that I could stop the charade at any moment?

Yeshua, can we talk? And what type of experience are you having? Even though you no longer have the desire to experience ‘human/physical reality’ as you have been there, done that, you are ‘experiencing’ some other type of interest, correct?

Would I be correct in saying that this is who we are as creators, moving ‘mentally’ from one experience to the next just to see what it would be like if we were in those situations? Is that what it means to create?

Yes, I feel you smiling.

So that is why you can say that everything is neutral, that we give everything its meaning. And within a world based on belief systems, you pick a belief and put a situation in the category that you decide is right or wrong, from a human perspective that is.

You know I’m not a game player but I can see how this would appeal to those that are, just going from one game to another, conquering all the levels of one game then on to the next game that is much more challenging. Even my statement that I am not a game player sounds funny to me as I say it, as I am realizing that my not liking games is no more than my choice for the situation that I have chosen for this ‘experience’.

The ‘Real Me’ is quite obviously a big game player, I just wanted to experience how it would feel not to want to play the game while living within the game. (Matrix) So it’s not that I’m out to prove that this is not real. I am out to prove that anything CAN be real for me if that is my choice? Yikes.

Is it possible that I could actually be bored with the knowing that I have full control of who I am so I have chosen to forget who I really am in order to experience a challenge? This would make the crazy mad idea (A Course in Miracles) not so crazy and mad; it would make the idea an intentional choice. Am I correct? I knew that already didn’t I? Yes, but now it is alive.

Always before I could not get past the whys of it all.

WOW.

I know I always say this but… this is the most important information that I have ever received. Ha! Ha! I will say this though, I think this is the most important revelation that I have received to date and I think that you would agree with that. (Smiley Face)

Thanks! For you kindness and your patience. I long to ‘experience’ the real you outside the game.

Heck, I long to experience the REAL ME outside of the game! Now that will be an experience!

LOL!

j